Thank you all.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Boy this month is sucky.

Oma is in the hospital with pneumonia.

Cousin D is in Intensive Care, his kidneys are shutting done. His wife, cousin A isn't in super good health either. She was present when my dad was born and they're close. She isn't ready to let him go.

And depression seems to be all around me right now.

[Knee Deep in Water Chloe]

Apr 10, 2016 11:45:23 GMT -5 Wisconsin Beth said:

Boy this month is sucky.

Oma is in the hospital with pneumonia.

Cousin D is in Intensive Care, his kidneys are shutting done. His wife, cousin A isn't in super good health either. She was present when my dad was born and they're close. She isn't ready to let him go.

And depression seems to be all around me right now.

Ugh. That's a lot.



I've not read this entire thread, so please know I'm not trying to be patronizing. I've also struggled with depression, which for me can manifest itself as anger. Are you able to focus on the good things going on in your life? Have you tried a gratefulness type of journal? That's something that works for me when I'm deep in depression. Forcing myself to stick to routines helps me also because I feel like I've accomplished something--even it's  "just" the fact that I managed to make my bed and brush my teeth. 

[Wisconsin Beth]

Apr 10, 2016 14:30:27 GMT -5 Knee Deep in Water Chloe said:

Apr 10, 2016 11:45:23 GMT -5 Wisconsin Beth said:

Boy this month is sucky.

Oma is in the hospital with pneumonia.

Cousin D is in Intensive Care, his kidneys are shutting done. His wife, cousin A isn't in super good health either. She was present when my dad was born and they're close. She isn't ready to let him go.

And depression seems to be all around me right now.

Ugh. That's a lot.



I've not read this entire thread, so please know I'm not trying to be patronizing. I've also struggled with depression, which for me can manifest itself as anger. Are you able to focus on the good things going on in your life? Have you tried a gratefulness type of journal? That's something that works for me when I'm deep in depression. Forcing myself to stick to routines helps me also because I feel like I've accomplished something--even it's  "just" the fact that I managed to make my bed and brush my teeth. 

I tend to use this entire board as journal.

I'm also starting to panic. My practical interview is tuesday. We have 15 days to prep the house and 2 kid parties to go to. Plus getting the floor done.

[Wisconsin Beth]

My grandmother is non responsive. They expect her pass within the week.

Tonight I have to pick up the floor stuff.

Sat. We need to grocery shop and make bread for dd to give away at church. Laundry must be done.

Sun. We do Sunday schhol, then church, the dd gets to go with her Sunday school class to paint a chalice. Sunday afternoon we have a Confirmation to attend.

Monday I have work, a dental appointment and ds has soccer from 430-530.

Tuesday is my practical interview at 915. I am not ready. I'm not sure I'll be ready by then either. They're discussing the Imposter Syndrome on the job thread and I don't think I'm being that when I say I don't feel very confident about this. I know I can do the actual job I'm going for, I'm just not confident I can pass the interview process.

[Wisconsin Beth]

For the record, I'm panicked.

[Jaguar]

<< BIG HUGS >> seriously I wish i was there with you right now.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Apr 15, 2016 13:32:04 GMT -5 Jaguar said:

<< BIG HUGS >> seriously I wish i was there with you right now.

thanks. We also have haircuts next sat, a kid party sat afternoon and I'd swear something else.
the 28th the floor gets installed.
the 29th is the people interview, which again I'm not ready for.
the 30th is another kid party.
the 1st is dd's First Communion.

The house is a pit.

[debthaven]

Beth, do you personally have to do all that? Can you share out some of those things with DH so you get time off / time to prepare?

[Wisconsin Beth]

Some of it yes, I have to do or attend. Some of it we're splitting up. Dh said I should do the kid party on the 30th and he'll do cleaning and food prep while we're gone.

He's not Catholic so the Sunday school stuff tends to be on me. Party prep is on both of us and floor pickup is on both of us too.

[wvugurl26]

Hugs Beth. I'm sure you will get through it. This spring is just rough at least I think anyway. Sorry about your grandma, that's always hard.

[Chocolate Lover]

Lots of hugs Beth 

[Wisconsin Beth]

Thanks.

[taz157]

Apr 15, 2016 14:46:28 GMT -5 wvugurl26 said:

Hugs Beth. I'm sure you will get through it. This spring is just rough at least I think anyway. Sorry about your grandma, that's always hard.

Yeah that. ((((Hugs)))) Wisconsin Beth

[Wisconsin Beth]

I dug out my bread machine and cleaned it. Gonna do a test run of bread tonight.

Got first load of laundry going and am running dishwasher.

Dug around in office and found some of my old computer books. I'm gonna skim through the sections pertinent to what I think is on the practical. They're not current but if I'm comfortable with the process in there I can translate to Windows 7 or 8. I hope.
Eta waiting for parents to come so we can get flooring.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Grandma's doing tons better. She's awake, eating and talking. She even managed to use the flip phone to call one of my aunts.

[Knee Deep in Water Chloe]

Hugs. Is there room in the budget to hire someone to help you clean up for the communion?

[Wisconsin Beth]

There's too much stuff in the house and it's all badly organized.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Dick passed away. I just found out. I'm sad, both because I liked him and because I adore his wife and she's heartbroken.

[taz157]

Apr 23, 2016 10:59:19 GMT -5 Wisconsin Beth said:

Dick passed away. I just found out. I'm sad, both because I liked him and because I adore his wife and she's heartbroken.

Who was he? I'm sorry to hear of his passing. My prayers and thoughts are with you and his family.

[ners]

Hugs Wisconsin Beth

[Wisconsin Beth]

And BIL is in hospital with a blood sugar over 500.

[Deleted]

Apr 23, 2016 17:13:02 GMT -5 Wisconsin Beth said:

And BIL is in hospital with a blood sugar over 500.

When it rains, it pours. I'm sorry. Hugs ( ) and drinks ( ). But as previously asked, who's Dick? I have 3 of them and 2 are gone and I am going to assume you don't know the one living in Florida.

[Wisconsin Beth]

My Dad's cousin's husband is Dick. He's a super sweetheart and I'm going to miss him. I didn't see a lot of him but he was a really good guy.

And Audrey, dad's cousin is heartbroken. She and dad are tight.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Funeral is going to be in Antigo. I may not be able to make it, depending on the day it is. My parents will probably stay overnight for it.

Eta Antigo is 4 hours mostly north of here.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Well, I'm not moving to the person interview round. I'm bummed. Alot. But today's hitting fairly on the sucky day scale so some of the feeling may be from other stuff.

I'm carpooling with my brother to Antigo for the funeral. Maybe one sister too, she's trying to get the day off.

Sad about Chris as it's been one year today.

Concerned and heading towards panic about dd's First Communion.

And tired. I'm so bloody tired. My period is here too.

I see Liz tonight. Need to pay my late Kohls bill, order a cake for Sunday, buy stuff at home depot and put gas in my car.

[debthaven]

Crap Beth I'm sorry

[Knee Deep in Water Chloe]

Oh, wow. That is a bad day/week. I'm sorry. You're going to make it through this.

[zibazinski]

I'm so sorry, Beth.

[bean29]

Wow Beth you really have had a round of bad luck. And a funeral in Antigo this week--let us know how that goes...hopefully all will be quiet there. When my son made firs communion we were just in a new house and had food catered all went fine, when DD made first communion we were in temp housing between house 2 and #3 which we built, so we had meal at a local restaurant. Hire a cleaning crew.

[Wisconsin Beth]

Carpooling to funeral with two ofy siblings. We're almost there, 30+ minutes out.