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Post by suesinfl on Nov 17, 2017 19:52:57 GMT -5
Congrats empress of self-improvement!!!! Do you really want to start over on day one again? You have worked so hard and come so far that it might be hard starting over.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 16, 2017 10:39:36 GMT -5
Well, hoops902 said it better than I was going to. I make my kids go with me to the store, pick out what perishables they want to donate and take the items to school. The school also has the kids help load the donated items into the volunteers' vehicles, take inventory, etc. At the end, the class with the most participation earns something like ice cream and then at the end of the year there is a small celebration for all the volunteer work that was done through various projects. This was done in the younger grades, but HS clubs are required to log in a certain number of volunteer hours for community projects. I figure a few minutes of my time, gas, etc. is well worth the lessons learned. Plus at the end of life am I going to wish I had those few minutes/money back? No. We are a community and we help each other through the hard times.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 15, 2017 18:07:25 GMT -5
I want to thank everyone for the kind words, support and just for being here. It means so much. I love my GP, but will take the gastro's advice.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 15, 2017 3:02:44 GMT -5
ymam.proboards.com/thread/54319/cancer-when-tell-family-updateSEE ABOVE Banging my head. GP wants me to be on FLMA for the next two years and then short term disability. In the mean time speaking with Hospice. Gastro wants me on FMLA as needed, blood tests and a bone scan. Have a check up at the end of December to see if I should apply for a transplant screening. It is so frustrating.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 10, 2017 13:22:07 GMT -5
When you look at what's happening with you and Carrot, can you pinpoint something like this? Possibly. It sounds horrible, but I really regret having a kid with Ex 2.0. It's not a subconscious thing either. I know I do. I don't want to have anything to do with that man ever again. Ever. I just want him to completely disappear from my life. But, because of Carrot, I cannot. Then to add to it, Carrot looks like him, he acts like him, and he is head over heels for his Dad...ugh. I love him so much, but at the same time he's a tie to a seriously dysfunctional period of my life. That's no excuse for my behavior though. If anything it just makes me feel worse about it. MLP, I could have and believe I did a couple of years ago. I finally had to admit that DS was his own person and has a bit of both of our personalities. It's changed since DS has gotten older and doesn't see his father any longer, but it was a very hard time. In one of my fits I told DS that he was just like his father. not one of my better moments and it hurt DS deeply. I've had to really make up for those words by telling him how I think he is a great young man and is his own person. HUGS
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 9, 2017 20:17:05 GMT -5
Since we will not be home and I have no idea what the kids' schedules are, I'll just pick up a small turkey breast. The kids' don't care for turkey and all the sides, so I'll pass this year, plus if there is anything special that they do want, it will be at older DD's house.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 8, 2017 9:21:39 GMT -5
I want to be a nationally ranked racing sailor. May not happen - most of them are half my age, twice my size and guys, because it's very physically demanding. And they learned to sail as kids. But I don't care, I'm doing fine and enjoying the journey.
This is a large part of goals because if you're not enjoying the journey, it becomes work.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 7, 2017 23:43:36 GMT -5
Im alone since my DH passed away over 8 years ago. I'll find a restaurant to eat at and call it another day in the year of.......
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 7, 2017 11:37:32 GMT -5
I'm going to older DD's house and all her in-laws will be there. I get along with all until they start there political rants, then I just leave the room, take the kids outside, go for a walk, etc. It's just easier that way and saves peace. Now her grandmother in-law is a different story. The woman can't resist a snotty comment about/to me or DD. Mainly I just ignore her, but the last time I was around her, I politely, but firmly let her know that her comments were not welcome and if she didn't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 6, 2017 14:35:54 GMT -5
Due to the current situation I have stopped looking. I can't change insurance, loose my sick/vacation time etc. so I'm staying put. But is it wrong for me to gloat a little about my last position that I held for 20 yrs and my supervisor cannot find a person to stay more than a month or two? No one within the organization would apply for it due to her reputation and now the cannot find any new blood who has never worked for the organization stay. I know that it is wrong to feel this way, but I hope it gives her time to ponder about the amount of work involved and the constant changes at the last minute and that everything is a priority.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 5, 2017 15:52:39 GMT -5
I'm so sick of all these shootings, but have no idea what to do to stop the crazy. I do know that my fear of crowds has increased 10 fold and all I want to do is stay in the house. Unfortunately that will not stop them and it means that I've given the shooters power over me.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 4, 2017 21:31:51 GMT -5
I'm not worried about having an empty nest as my kids are gone most of the time anyway. My fear is what happens when I need them for medical help. I'm not feeling real confidant lately.
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 2, 2017 20:26:14 GMT -5
Hope you have had a wonderful birthday!
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 2, 2017 20:16:44 GMT -5
Wow!
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Post by suesinfl on Nov 1, 2017 19:55:29 GMT -5
Thank you Saveinla, I am feeling better; some discomfort, but no pain. Eating solids is still a no go, but insure/boost, applesauce, pudding, icecream, etc. is helping.
Today was my first day back to work since the 13th and I'm tired even though all I did was open mail, check and answer email, and update some files. Tomorrow should be better.
I have decided to go for the transplant as long I'm a candidate. I will not be referred to the program until January and then it's up to the doctors there as to whether or not they will put me on the list. I'm also seeing a counselor through my organization's EAP, so that should also help.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 31, 2017 18:38:31 GMT -5
Ok, I just had to check what the heck you guys were talking about. Needless to say, I never noticed that there were tabs.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 29, 2017 10:39:43 GMT -5
and the occasional cornhole match are all parts of our lives. Sorry, this made me laugh.
I ditched the landline about 6 years ago along with downgrading the cable. We don't watch much TV mostly Neflex I've tried to cut the cable altogether, but need the internet and costs is almost double for just internet.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 27, 2017 22:42:20 GMT -5
A few years ago when my oldest sister was taking care of my mother in her home, I told my kids they better put me in a home as opposed to trying to take care of me. I did do this two times while working FT and having a young child. If it weren't for hospice, there is no way I could have done it.
It's a very hard decision, but I am making that decision so they don't have to. Best of luck to you liz, I hope you get some relief soon.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 27, 2017 19:27:24 GMT -5
Well, gastro dr. said nothing can be done with the liver but a transplant. He's really pushing for it, but I'm on the fence. January he will send me to the hospital that does them so that gives me time to think and research.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 27, 2017 19:20:39 GMT -5
Much less. I've been spending on them all year, plus with the health issues I'm facing there's not much money. DD1 and I agreed last year to just buy for the grandkids, since we both hate clutter and don't need anything.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 26, 2017 18:42:22 GMT -5
I didn't think about baby food, but I pushed myself to drink two bottles o f Ensure, a serving size of pudding, jello and applesauce. So that's better then it been..
I don't think I will need any food for quite awhile. DD has be stocking up on any and every thing she thinks I will eat. Lol
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 26, 2017 12:12:05 GMT -5
Many, many hugs to all. You ladies and men deserve them.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 26, 2017 3:31:16 GMT -5
Wonderful news about it not being cancer. Not so fab about the rest. Jag is right, a partial liver can be transplanted and, for the donor at least, it will regenerate. Not sure about for the recipient. I have a friend who has been through liver issues, I can check with her and see what she says. She's into the holistic side of things though. PM me if you'd like me to check in with her and get info. I would be more than happy to do it. Empress, please do check with your friend you can pm me the info. I'm searching for all information I can find at this point. I'm feeling much better, and I think the lack of food is what is causing the lack of energy So today I am going to force my self to eat a little something every hour. It sux when nothing sounds good or tastes good. Funny joke in the house now is if I having a boy or a girl and really bad names, because my stomach is so distended that I look like I'm 9 months pregnant. At least we have a sense of humor through this. Thank you everyone for your support
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 25, 2017 3:58:22 GMT -5
Good news, no cancer. Bad news is a severely diseased liver that is causing damage to my other organs. The cancer specialist was talking about putting me on the liver transplant list, but wants to see what the gastro specialist has to say first. I don't believe that I'm going to go that route, but we'll see. I've been calling to schedule an appt., but have not had a call back, so I will be on the phone all day today until I get through.' I'm sore, tired and just want to sleep all the time which is not helping things and I have no appetite, so I don't eat even though I have way to much food. I talked to DD and DS the Thursday before I went to the hospital and of course they were upset, but I could not answer their questions at the time because I did not know what was going on. They came with me to the cancer doctor's visit because they wanted to hear the news first hand and not from me because they know I would not have told them everything. Both were relieved at first, but now are in limbo because they are not sure what is next. I still have not told my oldest DD or my sisters, but will when I know more. Thank all of you for being here for me, I truly appreciate the kind words and encouragement.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 20, 2017 12:04:26 GMT -5
Sorry@nuttinhoney7 that you and your family are going through this. I hope that time and help him deal with the issues that are causing so much grief
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 20, 2017 11:59:57 GMT -5
I’m adding a parent brag. I think I’ve mentioned DS is very smart but very introverted. He’s applied for promotions but can’t “sell” himself. Well, before he went to Europe he was talking about this one job that looked interesting but was tired of being rejected. I told the nothing ventured nothing gained thing and then just let it drop. He applied, interviewed, and got it!!! 7k raise too!!! He got the official offer email and it’s a 10k raise!! Great news!! It just goes to show that just because people are introverted doesn't mean that they can not do a great job. Some times an introvert is better than a social butterfly. Best of luck to him!
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 19, 2017 21:58:17 GMT -5
Parenting fail here today. I slammed a car foor, hard, on caleb's hand. [img src="http://storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/sad.png" src="//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/sad.png" class="smile" alt=" "] Not a parenting fail, just a whoops, sorry. Parenting fail are the horror stories posted here and the news about other parents who dgaf about anyone but themselves. Everyone here is a great parent that should teach classes on how to be the best parent they can be. Hope C feels better.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 19, 2017 16:11:44 GMT -5
My spirits are up and I'm sure I will find something in the not too distant future.
Make this your mantra and repeat several times a day as needed.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 19, 2017 15:33:00 GMT -5
Please take care of yourself. Do you have to go back to work soon? I hope you can stay home and rest. I can go back to work next week after I see the specialist. I didn't sleep well last night, so I took a four hr nap today and still feel drained. At least I'm just sore and not hurting. I feel like they took two gallons of blood over the last week or so.
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Post by suesinfl on Oct 19, 2017 2:13:18 GMT -5
Thank you mmhmm! That helps a lot as there is so much information on the web, my mind starts to become mush
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