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Post by empress of self-improvement on Aug 10, 2022 18:55:48 GMT -5
Taking mom to Colorado with you NomoreDramaQ1015 has got to be one of the best, moving, loving, and sentimental gestures I have ever heard. Make sure you're downwind when you spread her. I made that mistake with my mother. While she's poisoning the blueberries bushes by Mount Washington, she also tried to kill me. Wind blew her into my mouth.🥴😱
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Post by jelloshots4all on Aug 10, 2022 19:02:38 GMT -5
Hi all,
I have mostly been away from the boards because of work and family. My dad is slowly making improvements. He's at home. Trying to get my son ready for his first year of college. And 3 months ago I was given a work deadline for next Wednesday.
Well, my newly hired team BEAT that deadline today!!! So proud of them! We are the only dept that has achieved our goal/deadline. I bought them all lunch and shared that fact. We have been through hell, but the smiles when I shared the news today I hope reinvigorated them.
Our CEO and President complimented all of us today. I say WINNING!!
I need to catch up on the boards this weekend.
Hugs!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2022 19:07:03 GMT -5
Lurker. Since waaaaaaaayyyyyyy back in the day. Wine. Grief. Middle age. All have culminated into me posting on the threads about TIPS and treasuries. Because I buy those things all the time. And I hope I helped. Just because that website that the government uses is dumb and it's not clear sometimes if you're hitting all the right buttons. Anyways. Middle age sucks. I thought I would share that before I go back into lukerdom and stop posting. I don't know what it is about middle age. With children. And married life (or non-married life). And you have people, but, then people disappear. Either drifting apart. Or life getting in the way. Or, the inevitable death. And the next thing you know you are over 40 and all of a sudden all this crap has happened and the world thinks you are supposed to be adult enough to handle it all maturely and shiznit. Middle age sucks. That's all I really wanted to say. And hugs to all of you Please don't go back to lurking. We are a good place to be, to share, to lean, and to learn. Occasionally we hiss and spit a bit too, but that's part of the process. Life is a crazy weird journey and I think we all need guides and companions for the trip.
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Post by skeeter on Aug 10, 2022 19:07:25 GMT -5
Taking mom to Colorado with you NomoreDramaQ1015 has got to be one of the best, moving, loving, and sentimental gestures I have ever heard. Make sure you're downwind when you spread her. I made that mistake with my mother. While she's poisoning the blueberries bushes by Mount Washington, she also tried to kill me. Wind blew her into my mouth.🥴😱 OMG
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Post by MarionTh230 on Aug 10, 2022 19:12:28 GMT -5
If you think middle age sucks MarionTh230 , just wait till you become a "senior citizen". At this point, I'm just hoping this stupid red state legalizes pot. And that I save enough money to not be a burden to my kid. If I can make it to senior citizen all I want to do is sit on my porch being high all day not bothering anyone until I slip into the great unknown. I mean, middle age still sucks, but a girl needs goals.
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Post by MarionTh230 on Aug 10, 2022 19:18:29 GMT -5
Lurker. Since waaaaaaaayyyyyyy back in the day. Wine. Grief. Middle age. All have culminated into me posting on the threads about TIPS and treasuries. Because I buy those things all the time. And I hope I helped. Just because that website that the government uses is dumb and it's not clear sometimes if you're hitting all the right buttons. Anyways. Middle age sucks. I thought I would share that before I go back into lukerdom and stop posting. I don't know what it is about middle age. With children. And married life (or non-married life). And you have people, but, then people disappear. Either drifting apart. Or life getting in the way. Or, the inevitable death. And the next thing you know you are over 40 and all of a sudden all this crap has happened and the world thinks you are supposed to be adult enough to handle it all maturely and shiznit. Middle age sucks. That's all I really wanted to say. And hugs to all of you Please don't go back to lurking. We are a good place to be, to share, to lean, and to learn. Occasionally we hiss and spit a bit too, but that's part of the process. Life is a crazy weird journey and I think we all need guides and companions for the trip. My heart just breaks so much for DramaQ and Giramomma. I had a parent die in January. All their discussion about the ashes just hits home. I wish I had some words that could comfort them, but, I don't. I'm still not over the grief. And I don't know when I will be. I have nothing to offer them that will help. It is just simply heartbreaking. I read a quote that said, Love Causes a Broken Heart. Which, sometimes helps me. But, it's kind of weak really. I just wish I could somehow scoop them up and snap my fingers and make the grief go away. But I can't. Nobody can. They have such a difficult path ahead. And I know, because I'm living it. And it breaks my heart. I wish they didn't have to go through this. So all I can do is lurk and send virtual hugs.
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Post by jelloshots4all on Aug 10, 2022 19:23:49 GMT -5
Please don't go back to lurking. We are a good place to be, to share, to lean, and to learn. Occasionally we hiss and spit a bit too, but that's part of the process. Life is a crazy weird journey and I think we all need guides and companions for the trip. My heart just breaks so much for DramaQ and Giramomma. I had a parent die in January. All their discussion about the ashes just hits home. I wish I had some words that could comfort them, but, I don't. I'm still not over the grief. And I don't know when I will be. I have nothing to offer them that will help. It is just simply heartbreaking. I read a quote that said, Love Causes a Broken Heart. Which, sometimes helps me. But, it's kind of weak really. I just wish I could somehow scoop them up and snap my fingers and make the grief go away. But I can't. Nobody can. They have such a difficult path ahead. And I know, because I'm living it. And it breaks my heart. I wish they didn't have to go through this. So all I can do is lurk and send virtual hugs. Hugs Marion! You are generous to offer support for others when your grief is still so strong!! Please don't back away from the board. Their are so many great people here to lift you up when you need it! Prayers and hugs!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2022 19:26:39 GMT -5
Thanks. I don't mean to take away anything from what Drama is going through. It's tough.
Hope this comes across the way it is intended.......
Personally, I don't think you're taking anything away from NomoreDramaQ1015 and that she understands you are also grieving a gigantic loss. To me, it's the "who cares about that kind of crap" posts right now that are disrespectful to both of you and the other posters that have lost loved ones. Sure, some of them do help take your mind off of what's happening in your own lives, but others are just .
Both of you ladies have been/still are going through hell and I honestly don't know how you manage to still keep it together. My admiration for you both (and some others) cannot be measured in words or anything else.
When I lost a loved one, there was a weird disconnect because that death was everything in my brain all the time. But life somehow kept going on around me. I felt invisible in my grief and loss. If anything I've posted seemed uncaring, a part of the "who cares about that kind of crap" you speak of, I am very sorry as it was not meant in that way. Loss and grief are strange journeys, no map, no timeline.
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Post by chiver78 on Aug 10, 2022 19:26:45 GMT -5
k, what is it with the overcharges lately? do I have a sign on my forehead? I got an updated invoice from the electrician company, to reflect the changing of "5 devices vs the 3 that was quoted" for indoors. the work that was done was swapping a nightlight/outlet for a dual outlet in my hallway, and swapping both outlet plates in the main bathroom to white from dark brown. the guy that wrote the quote walked through my house and took notes, and quoted me three outlet replacements. what I'm gathering from this update is that each switch in the bathroom outlets is a separate line item. I'm sorry, you saw the outlets and quoted accordingly? and then, I decided to take a closer look at the whole updated invoice. I asked for an update to one of hte original line items - I had asked for a quad outlet in the tiki bar, and then realized I probably needed two. the original quote had the line item for one, and the update has that plus a pair of quads at a different price point as the last line item.
I pushed back on both, after EOB today. I guess the silver lining here is that I can pay this invoice via CC and get points for it. I didn't think I'd be able to make Mosaic on my JetBlue card for spending this year, but maybe I was wrong. I need $22k in spending before the end of the year, and this invoice puts me $3k closer.
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Post by chiver78 on Aug 10, 2022 19:30:51 GMT -5
welcome to posting, Marion! please keep doing so. I see you've been registered for some time, so you've definitely been around awhile. we don't bite, unless asked first. welcome back, Jello! I've missed you
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2022 19:38:11 GMT -5
Please don't go back to lurking. We are a good place to be, to share, to lean, and to learn. Occasionally we hiss and spit a bit too, but that's part of the process. Life is a crazy weird journey and I think we all need guides and companions for the trip. My heart just breaks so much for DramaQ and Giramomma. I had a parent die in January. All their discussion about the ashes just hits home. I wish I had some words that could comfort them, but, I don't. I'm still not over the grief. And I don't know when I will be. I have nothing to offer them that will help. It is just simply heartbreaking. I read a quote that said, Love Causes a Broken Heart. Which, sometimes helps me. But, it's kind of weak really. I just wish I could somehow scoop them up and snap my fingers and make the grief go away. But I can't. Nobody can. They have such a difficult path ahead. And I know, because I'm living it. And it breaks my heart. I wish they didn't have to go through this. So all I can do is lurk and send virtual hugs. I am so very sorry for your loss in January. I think we all struggle with the search for words or gestures of comfort and healing. I often wish for a super power or a magic wand to make their pain, and yours, vanish because it's a pain many of us have experienced.
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Post by CCL on Aug 10, 2022 19:40:38 GMT -5
k, what is it with the overcharges lately? do I have a sign on my forehead? I got an updated invoice from the electrician company, to reflect the changing of "5 devices vs the 3 that was quoted" for indoors. the work that was done was swapping a nightlight/outlet for a dual outlet in my hallway, and swapping both outlet plates in the main bathroom to white from dark brown. the guy that wrote the quote walked through my house and took notes, and quoted me three outlet replacements. what I'm gathering from this update is that each switch in the bathroom outlets is a separate line item. I'm sorry, you saw the outlets and quoted accordingly? and then, I decided to take a closer look at the whole updated invoice. I asked for an update to one of hte original line items - I had asked for a quad outlet in the tiki bar, and then realized I probably needed two. the original quote had the line item for one, and the update has that plus a pair of quads at a different price point as the last line item. I pushed back on both, after EOB today. I guess the silver lining here is that I can pay this invoice via CC and get points for it. I didn't think I'd be able to make Mosaic on my JetBlue card for spending this year, but maybe I was wrong. I need $22k in spending before the end of the year, and this invoice puts me $3k closer. $3000 for a few switches and outlets? Yikes!
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Post by MarionTh230 on Aug 10, 2022 19:56:48 GMT -5
welcome to posting, Marion! please keep doing so. I see you've been registered for some time, so you've definitely been around awhile. we don't bite, unless asked first. welcome back, Jello! I've missed you I may, or may not, have been lurking since the msn days, circa 2006, before I got enough gall to register here. I will neither confirm nor deny those years of lurkerdom As a lurker, I hope Giramomma and DramaQ take my posts in the way I intended. I wasn't trying to detract from their grief. But something about the things they said just resonated so hard. Whatever it is they are feeling, I think lots of us that have had to deal with this grief have felt (or are feeling) it. I don't want to say it is normal to feel these things, but, at the very least, they certainly are not alone.
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Post by chiver78 on Aug 10, 2022 20:00:15 GMT -5
k, what is it with the overcharges lately? do I have a sign on my forehead? I got an updated invoice from the electrician company, to reflect the changing of "5 devices vs the 3 that was quoted" for indoors. the work that was done was swapping a nightlight/outlet for a dual outlet in my hallway, and swapping both outlet plates in the main bathroom to white from dark brown. the guy that wrote the quote walked through my house and took notes, and quoted me three outlet replacements. what I'm gathering from this update is that each switch in the bathroom outlets is a separate line item. I'm sorry, you saw the outlets and quoted accordingly? and then, I decided to take a closer look at the whole updated invoice. I asked for an update to one of hte original line items - I had asked for a quad outlet in the tiki bar, and then realized I probably needed two. the original quote had the line item for one, and the update has that plus a pair of quads at a different price point as the last line item. I pushed back on both, after EOB today. I guess the silver lining here is that I can pay this invoice via CC and get points for it. I didn't think I'd be able to make Mosaic on my JetBlue card for spending this year, but maybe I was wrong. I need $22k in spending before the end of the year, and this invoice puts me $3k closer. $3000 for a few switches and outlets? Yikes! no, the list was 2 full pages. what I mentioned were the points of contention. I'm okay with the general number, and had to okay it before work was scheduled. we're good there 🙂
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Post by NomoreDramaQ1015 on Aug 10, 2022 20:05:12 GMT -5
There is something incredibly sad and disheartening about that. Yes, especially since he was in a plastic box for a while, on top of it. Mom wasn't ready to make any urn decisions when dad died. Which was fine. No sense in trying to push her. She also wouldn't let me make decisions.
My parents did 0 pre-planning in 10 years.. Even as dad's body started failing, my mom was still clinging to the hope that the next chemo drug they gave dad would cure him.
This is also how my mom operates. Better to control everything so that it fits into her narrative then to let others in. I mean. We didn't have a funeral or anything. I think there would have been some people that would have come and paid their respects, and maybe even supported me. But, she never gave anyone the chance. So, she ensured that she grieved alone by shutting everyone out. It's the only way to make her narrative that she's alone work. By shutting others out, she also ensured that I didn't get any of my needs met. Which, of course never mattered. Which also fits right into her narrative.
If she says she's alone, but she has a funeral and people show up..she's got concrete proof she's not alone. If people show up to support me, then she's got concrete proof that it's just not about her. Thus, her narrative no longer works, and that causes too much cognitive dissonance..
Taking control, to the point of keeping dad on the floor. That's what is needed to keep her familiar systems going. Damn Gira that sucks.
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Post by empress of self-improvement on Aug 10, 2022 20:14:58 GMT -5
I guess I shouldn't mention it's been 2 years and DH is still in the box, wrapped in his favorite ratty orange sweatshirt. No?
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Post by busymom on Aug 10, 2022 20:36:33 GMT -5
I guess I shouldn't mention it's been 2 years and DH is still in the box, wrapped in his favorite ratty orange sweatshirt. No? But if it was his favorite sweatshirt, why not? Frankly, DH & I haven't decided where we want to be buried yet either. He has no interest in his hometown, and the city I grew up in is getting such a crime problem that I can't imagine future generations visiting a gravesite there. We'll figure it out, or DD can scatter our ashes in some of our favorite places...
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Post by busymom on Aug 10, 2022 20:37:59 GMT -5
Welcome Aboard MarionTh230! Please do stick around & post. Most of our gang here is pretty easy-going. Nicest online folks you'll ever not meet in person.
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Post by seriousthistime on Aug 10, 2022 20:41:07 GMT -5
Please don't go back to lurking. We are a good place to be, to share, to lean, and to learn. Occasionally we hiss and spit a bit too, but that's part of the process. Life is a crazy weird journey and I think we all need guides and companions for the trip. My heart just breaks so much for DramaQ and Giramomma. I had a parent die in January. All their discussion about the ashes just hits home. I wish I had some words that could comfort them, but, I don't. I'm still not over the grief. And I don't know when I will be. I have nothing to offer them that will help. It is just simply heartbreaking. I read a quote that said, Love Causes a Broken Heart. Which, sometimes helps me. But, it's kind of weak really. I just wish I could somehow scoop them up and snap my fingers and make the grief go away. But I can't. Nobody can. They have such a difficult path ahead. And I know, because I'm living it. And it breaks my heart. I wish they didn't have to go through this. So all I can do is lurk and send virtual hugs. Agreed. I wrote this in another thread about the DramaQ's mother. I remember when my parents died. With my dad, I was 7 years old, the oldest kid in the family, and old enough to realize we were going to be totally screwed without him. I had kids of my own when my mom died. I remember going outside the morning I heard she was gone and marveling that the world was still turning and life was going on around me when I felt my own life had stopped.
In both cases, it was very much putting one foot in front of the other and going through the motions until life returned to some semblance of normal. It's a sad time.
Grief is the price of love.
And that's really all I've got at this moment.
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Post by cooper88 on Aug 10, 2022 20:44:29 GMT -5
If you think middle age sucks MarionTh230 , just wait till you become a "senior citizen". At this point, I'm just hoping this stupid red state legalizes pot. And that I save enough money to not be a burden to my kid. If I can make it to senior citizen all I want to do is sit on my porch being high all day not bothering anyone until I slip into the great unknown. I mean, middle age still sucks, but a girl needs goals. My state did finally legalize it this year. Is there such a thing as a purple state? Half the state is really blue, half is really red. I live in a red area. Sigh. The city council here thought they would just not issue any permits and problem solved. The governor stepped in. Permits were issued!
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Post by Deleted on Aug 10, 2022 20:49:44 GMT -5
I guess I shouldn't mention it's been 2 years and DH is still in the box, wrapped in his favorite ratty orange sweatshirt. No? When my DH died I had a proper church funeral complete with incense. Traditionally the box is covered with a white cloth called a pall during the service. I used one of his favorite plaid flannel shirts instead. I landed in Albania yesterday evening and am dealing with some sleeplessness due to jet lag, No big deal- tour doesn't start till Friday. Wow. I'm in freakin' Albania. The city is a typical congested city with every business possible. Will explore tomorrow. Hotel room is a bit small but it's pleasant and has a real balcony but not much of a view. I'm paying 55 Euros for the extra night so I won't complain. No idea what happened to the driver who was supposed to pick me up but I didn't pay in advance and it was easy enough to get one at the airport. Taxi driver was listening to political commentary- I heard "Enver Hoxa" three times and references to communism and fascism. It's darn weird to listen to a European language and understand so little. Some of DH's ashes are with me. I think I've left bits in 9 countries so far. This will add Albania, Croatia, Slovenia and Bosnia to the list if all goes well. (Still a little paranoid about COVID although I'm vaccinated and boosted and it's a requirement for our tour group of 14 people.)
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Post by toomuchreality on Aug 10, 2022 21:05:04 GMT -5
I just totally face planted. Jackson was whining so it went to the living room to see what was up. Macy was laying in the middle of the floor directly in my way and I didn’t see her. If anyone wonders what tripping over an 80 lb dog is like, it's rough. T2 came downstairs to see if I was still alive. I am, but my lower lip is split wide open. Maybe I should stop turning all the lights off if I'm not in a room. Ouch! Hope you'll be okay (better) soon.
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Post by andi9899 on Aug 10, 2022 21:31:16 GMT -5
I just totally face planted. Jackson was whining so it went to the living room to see what was up. Macy was laying in the middle of the floor directly in my way and I didn’t see her. If anyone wonders what tripping over an 80 lb dog is like, it's rough. T2 came downstairs to see if I was still alive. I am, but my lower lip is split wide open. Maybe I should stop turning all the lights off if I'm not in a room. Ouch! Hope you'll be okay (better) soon. Thanks. I found the beginning of a bruise on my arm. The lips is healing. I'd have to point it out for anyone to notice. Good thing mouth wounds heal fast. I really didn't want to go through airport security looking like I got in a bar fight.
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Post by NoNamePerson on Aug 10, 2022 21:38:01 GMT -5
Ouch! Hope you'll be okay (better) soon. Thanks. I found the beginning of a bruise on my arm. The lips is healing. I'd have to point it out for anyone to notice. Good thing mouth wounds heal fast. I really didn't want to go through airport security looking like I got in a bar fight. Aha, is that a unconscious slip! Come on spill the real beans! We won’t judge.
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Post by NomoreDramaQ1015 on Aug 10, 2022 21:38:16 GMT -5
The memorial went really well. Church ladies outdid themselves we'll have food for months.
Mom's coworker made cupcakes baking is her coping mechanism. They were AMAZING. Never been to a memorial where people were staking claims on dessert before. I made off with close to a dozen.🤣
I think mom would have liked it. It wasn't traditional but I think I did all right. The people who mattered where there.
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Post by andi9899 on Aug 10, 2022 21:39:47 GMT -5
When I came outside and let the umbrella up, there was a big cicada on the underside. Sigh. Me being me, I grabbed all my stuff and ran inside. I got some bug spray hoping it would convince him to leave, but it was on the part of the umbrella closest to the sliding door, and the spray wouldn’t reach. I was trying to spray it from inside the house, with the door open just enough for me to do it, but I needed another hand to close the door if he flew toward it. So I went and knocked on YD’s door and told her I needed her to help me with something. She said okay and started walking behind me. I said “you didn’t even ask what it was”, she said well what is it. Secretly I thought it was sweet that she agreed without asking. I explained the situation and told her I just needed her to close the door if it flew that way, so it wouldn’t get in the house. So I leaned out the door to get close enough for the spray to hit it, it flew off, toward the other end of the door, I jumped back in the house, and YD slammed the door shut. Then it flew off, away from the house. I told YD THANK YOU SO MUCH! She probably thinks I’m a nut because she keeps “saving” me from critters around here. She just doesn’t know, she’s my new best friend and I owe her for saving my life lol. It's just a bug. Why not just flick it from outside the umbrella and force it to fly away? This said and if it were a rat of any kind and I'd be calling my daddy. I guess we all have our things. One day there was a praying mantis on the railing of the deck and T1 was about to come out of her skin. I grabbed a towel and nudged it off the side. She was scared I was going to yeet it towards her.
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Post by andi9899 on Aug 10, 2022 21:43:03 GMT -5
There is something incredibly sad and disheartening about that. Yes, especially since he was in a plastic box for a while, on top of it. Mom wasn't ready to make any urn decisions when dad died. Which was fine. No sense in trying to push her. She also wouldn't let me make decisions.
My parents did 0 pre-planning in 10 years.. Even as dad's body started failing, my mom was still clinging to the hope that the next chemo drug they gave dad would cure him.
This is also how my mom operates. Better to control everything so that it fits into her narrative then to let others in. I mean. We didn't have a funeral or anything. I think there would have been some people that would have come and paid their respects, and maybe even supported me. But, she never gave anyone the chance. So, she ensured that she grieved alone by shutting everyone out. It's the only way to make her narrative that she's alone work. By shutting others out, she also ensured that I didn't get any of my needs met. Which, of course never mattered. Which also fits right into her narrative.
If she says she's alone, but she has a funeral and people show up..she's got concrete proof she's not alone. If people show up to support me, then she's got concrete proof that it's just not about her. Thus, her narrative no longer works, and that causes too much cognitive dissonance..
Taking control, to the point of keeping dad on the floor. That's what is needed to keep her familiar systems going. My parents are the opposite. They've prepaid their funerals and bought a vault to keep the ashes in. I told her to get the money for the vault back since we won't be visiting. I informed her (jokingly) that dad is getting spread behind the liquor store and she's going behind the Walgreens she coupons at.
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Post by andi9899 on Aug 10, 2022 21:46:53 GMT -5
Taking mom to Colorado with you NomoreDramaQ1015 has got to be one of the best, moving, loving, and sentimental gestures I have ever heard. Make sure you're downwind when you spread her. I made that mistake with my mother. While she's poisoning the blueberries bushes by Mount Washington, she also tried to kill me. Wind blew her into my mouth.🥴😱 I'm sorry, but I laughed at that. I'm going straight to hell.
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NomoreDramaQ1015
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Post by NomoreDramaQ1015 on Aug 10, 2022 21:48:12 GMT -5
I love praying mantis. They are so zen.
I rescued one in the Target parking lot. It was going to end up getting smashed. I moved it to an island with a tree. Though the lady in the car next to me was going to have a heart attack watching me.
Then what had to be the world's tiniest mantis leapt off our fence and onto DHs ear that same year. He was hard to pry off he liked it there.🤣
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countrygirl2
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Post by countrygirl2 on Aug 10, 2022 21:49:28 GMT -5
My poor DD fell coming out of her bedroom this morning. With her laying down so much and us getting up very late this morning, I'm sure her blood sugar was low. She is sporting a big black eye on the left of her head today. She said she hit the floor but I'm thinking she hit the side of the door or something. This is the second time in the last year, though it's a different eye and she didn't have her glasses on. She said her eyeball isn't hurting, but I'm thinking of taking her to the doctor anyway, her eye lid is swollen shut. She lays too much, but I really think her blood sugar was low, so the combination of both. I hurried and made sure she had something to eat. I need to talk to a nurse or PA to see if she should drop down the dose of Ozempic too. Tonight, I made sure she had a snack before going to bed. I'm going to do that each night. I told her, I will also get something like strawberry milk to keep in the fridge and when she gets up to take her bath, drink it. I don't want her falling like that. It's strange to me she has managed to hit an eye both times. Poor girl, told me she was sorry, I said why, you don't need to tell me you are sorry because you fell. We are supposed to get a fasting blood draw done, I need to get up early and us get it done. Will try in the morning since I fed her later tonight, then quickly get her breakfast afterward. I worry about her. Hubs and I went out for dinner this afternoon, she said she didn't feel like going, so we brought dinner home for her. We bought 6 dozen ears of corn to freeze. I need to prep them in the morning. This time I'm just putting them in flat quart bags for the freezer, instead of the boxes. I think that will work ok. We used to do 20 dozen so this is a real decrease. They told us at the stand this was the last picking for this year, but with all the rain it should still be good corn. We also bought a cantaloupe and small watermelon. Hubs was going to have his mom cremated, I didn't get involved but then he changed his mine. Maybe because she had the prepaid funeral plan. His dad initially said he wanted to be then changed his mind, so maybe that was why. We already have our grave sites, and headstones set for hubs, myself, and DD. I'm thinking of doing a prepaid service for her, likely should do that. She will just be interred, if we are alive graveside, if not, just interment.
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