what are you doing right now?

[daisylu]

Just got back from rescuing DD in a car breakdown. Her gear shift wouldn't move. I talked her through the normal things on the phone and then drove to her (about 20 minutes away). Tried a couple of other things which show it is likely either a broken cable or worn out parts on the gear shift. I setup repair with our normal garage and she called a tow truck to get it there.

And she didn't meltdown into a puddle through all of this, so that is progress.

[ners]

daisylu Sorry your daughter is have car trouble.  Kudos on her behavior.

[cooper88]

NomoreDramaQ1015 I know exactly how you feel. I was working full time, taking a couple of classes, and dealing with all the long term care issues with my mom all at the same time. The paperwork, itself, wasn't a big deal. However, I was so stretched thin that I had a meltdown one night over a letter, because it was just one more f'ing thing that I just didn't have the bandwidth to deal with.

[Pink Cashmere]

chiver78, I hope you feel better soon!

[anciana]

Sept 27, 2023 17:11:23 GMT -5 NastyWoman said:

Sept 27, 2023 15:13:04 GMT -5 anciana said:

Sorry to hear you’re not feeling well, what a rotten turn of events. Hope you can get some rest, food, meds to get you on the path of healing soon. Hang in there 🤗

As NastyWoman mentioned last week, anyone can order more free tests from the gov again so I just signed up to have some shipped for our family for this fall/winter.
I also looked at making an appointment for the vaccine for our family. Our insurance said they’d open up tomorrow so I’ve been checking. The first available appointments are in 3-4 weeks so that’s a bit disappointing as I hoped for something sooner but it’ll have to do.

So in one of my aimless musings I am now wondering what will happen with these test orders if there is a government shutdown? Will they just be delayed until Congress is ready to work something out? Or is this more like SS which supposedly will be paid on time? These tests may be pre-funded but someone will have to do the shipping and that costs money too.

ETA: my order included the message that shipping would start October 2 - after the potential shutdown date hence my "musings". I am not losing it completely yet.

Ha, true, I didn’t even think of that. I guess we’ll see, I did what I could. I believe tests can be had at many stores so if anyone needs them, they can purchase them.

[Pink Cashmere]

Sept 27, 2023 16:30:43 GMT -5 TheOtherMe said:

My coughing is no longer coming from deep in my lungs.  It's just a dry cough and it's not a 20 or 30 minute fit.  

For whatever reason, I am very tired today.  I think that is part of Covid and I have no idea of how long that will last.

I did order groceries for Friday pick up.  For whatever reason, I can't scroll to a time past 8:30 AM online so I had to use my phone to get a later time.  

I am glad your cough is improving. Hopefully the fatigue will improve soon too. Please rest as much as you need to. 

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Sept 27, 2023 18:05:10 GMT -5 cooper88 said:

NomoreDramaQ1015 I know exactly how you feel. I was working full time, taking a couple of classes, and dealing with all the long term care issues with my mom all at the same time. The paperwork, itself, wasn't a big deal. However, I was so stretched thin that I had a meltdown one night over a letter, because it was just one more f'ing thing that I just didn't have the bandwidth to deal with.

That's exactly it.

I freaked DH out because I told him without my antidepressant I'm dead inside.

Cause what's the point? It's a never ending amount of bricks being thrown at me. All I do is put one foot in front of the other fulfilling my duties and being responsible until it's my turn to go in the home.

There is nothing in life but duty and you get nothing in return for it.

Prestiq quiets that voice most days. Not this week though.

I told my coworker the cage broke and the crackhead squirrels are running around my brain again.

[Opti]

Sept 27, 2023 19:06:53 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Sept 27, 2023 18:05:10 GMT -5 cooper88 said:

NomoreDramaQ1015 I know exactly how you feel. I was working full time, taking a couple of classes, and dealing with all the long term care issues with my mom all at the same time. The paperwork, itself, wasn't a big deal. However, I was so stretched thin that I had a meltdown one night over a letter, because it was just one more f'ing thing that I just didn't have the bandwidth to deal with.

That's exactly it.

I freaked DH out because I told him without my antidepressant I'm dead inside.

Cause what's the point? It's a never ending amount of bricks being thrown at me. All I do is put one foot in front of the other fulfilling my duties and being responsible until it's my turn to go in the home.

There is nothing in life but duty and you get nothing in return for it.

Prestiq quiets that voice most days. Not this week though.

I told my coworker the cage broke and the crackhead squirrels are running around my brain again.

That's tough. You have been dealing with a lot for too long. I do hope you can find a way to lessen the pressure, so your meds work again. 

[Pink Cashmere]

Things are so weird with Mister and I. I tried to engage him earlier today, because I knew that today is his Dad’s birthday. I didn’t mention that, that reached out to chat if he wanted to, and he said he was really busy with work. Which does happen, but normally, he’ll make time to get back to me when he can. Didn’t happen today, and I didn’t try again.

Normally, when I get off work, I can’t wait to get back home. But with my schedule changing, he gets home before I do now, and today, I was in no hurry at all to get home. I chatted in the parking lot with a coworker after I got off work, and that is a big NO for me, if we don’t talk while I’m on the clock, catch me if you can after I clock out. Because I speed walk to my car, and zoom off the parking lot before most people have even gotten started their cars. I’ve worked with different people over the years, and one consistent thing has always been that my coworkers have always said that after I clock out, is the fastest I walk all day lol. Then I didn’t even mind that I got stuck in traffic, and still stopped at a store after, just piddling around, because I was not in a hurry to get back home ASAP after work, like I use to be.

The kitchen sink is overflowing with dirty dishes. I don’t really care. I didn’t load the dishwasher. I don’t care about dinner. It’s best for me to not eat anyway, since that’s the only way I know my stomach won’t act up. So dinner was not a conversation. If he doesn’t initiate a conversation, I have nothing to say, about anything. 

I know I’m not handling this well, but with the way he’s acting toward me, Idk what else to do.

[chiver78]

fly-by check in. fever has come down to 101, and I've been sleeping all day. will just keep on keeping on. socially distant hugs to all that need 'em.

[Pink Cashmere]

Sept 27, 2023 21:29:09 GMT -5 chiver78 said:

fly-by check in. fever has come down to 101, and I've been sleeping all day. will just keep on keeping on. socially distant hugs to all that need 'em.

I appreciate you checking in. That fever is concerning. Sleeping and resting is good. Keep doing that. Please take care of yourself as best you can. 

[Works4me]

Pink - I'm sorry you are dealing with this on top of everything else. Any idea what was behind last week? Anything we can do for you besides sending love and support and lots of hugs?

[countrygirl2]

I'm sorry Pink, but you two are starting to sound like 2 kids spiteing each other and that is not going to end well.  

I mean don't take this wrong, but how is not cooking and letting your kitchen get dirty helping?? I know you have issues with your stomach and the situation.  And I have done some stuff like that in the past and it just makes things worse. I decided to just not do it anymore no matter how aggravated I get. It will than smooth itself out in time.

Kindness always works even when you don't feel like being kind.

I would even give hubs a hug and kiss and cook his favorite food, that always helped.  There is a reason we have been married 55 years.  Sometimes I give when I don't want to, but it works out in the end.  

[countrygirl2]

PO is sold, they accepted the inspection report. Hubs is still going to fix the wire and they didn't even request it, not smart.

The 2 doors in the front need fixed, supposed to open for ADA standards. They couldn't make them work so disconnected the apparatus. That is the responsibility of the PO to repair not us, hubs is fixing two items and spraying a vine in back we did not realize was taking over, so that will be done.

I paid $16k at an auction in 2016, leased it for 7 years and sold it for $55k. Said ordinary closing expenses prorated, hope its not much, but no realtor fee so that helps.  Has to close but they said 30 day closing and I see no reason it won't. Sure didn't want to sell it though.

[finnime]

Good morning, enduring invisipeeps, ploughing the north 40 while fighting Covid and drafting wills spontaneously. I hope your Thursday compensates you for all your efforts in the form of expressions of love from those you love in turn.

Hugs to everyone, need them or not.

I went out yesterday and got a haircut at a salon near DSis's, then she and I met for an early dinner. It's so very nice to be able to see her frequently without it being a big deal. I'm hoping she'll make it to the fair this weekend where we will have a booth.

Today I've got to get preparations under way for the fair. And I see, looking around, that I need to clean this house, dusting and vacuuming. I'm debating having my window a/c taken down to the basement. DH wants to just leave it in place, ready for next summer. But it will leave air leaking, both out the sides and through it; it is just a fan, really. So not decided yet. The sucker is heavy.

Franklin the Dog now has a friend to play with in the morning at the beach. She's a small for her breed Bermese Mountain dog. At 80 pounds, she's about 20 bigger than him, but she's female and so he is willing to accept her without getting agitated. He's mostly not good with other male dogs except for the very small ones. That started when DH was walking him and they got run into by an off-leash large dog who knocked over DH and tried to fight Franklin. The young girl with that dog could in no way control him. A passerby intervened, fortunately, or it could have gotten very ugly. DH had some bruises and I guess Franklin did as well. He's not been okay with other (male) dogs since.

Yesterday we did see the sun! at dawn.

[ners]

Eating breakfast. Back to work today.  

[daisylu]

So sorry that things aren't getting better for you Pink Cashmere.

Knowing how you are about your kitchen being clean, I am sure it was difficult for you to leave that mess and I don't blame you for letting it go one bit.

Praying for you and Mister.

[giramomma]

I'm sorry Pink.

It's a hard situation. My dad and I are/were pull-awayers when we are really stressed and/or upset.

Dh is still a work in progress. I think the last time, we talked he got the picture. If I don't want to talk about it, it's because having these feelings once is painful enough. I don't want to go through the feelings again by talking about it. And, if you want to make something more painful for me, I'll be 100% blunt and say things you absolutely don't want to hear, and we'll talk about things that have no resolution, except through divorce.

I think the difference is DH trusts me enough to come back around.

My mom chose not to trust my dad. And that drove so much fear based behavior/lashing out. Still does, actually.

My DH has never been my only source of filling my emotional needs. I don't think it's a bad thing, that I have other things that serve the same purpose. I had no idea DH and I had gotten as bad as we did right before I discovered his addiction because teaching was filling my emotional needs right up. DH learned to understand that I have to teach. Some days, I will be out of sorts, and I come back from teaching a different person. And he will just be like "just go teach."

I think these things are fluid. At one point, my workplace was a great source of support. Now it's not. The issue, isn't that my workplace changed. Well it is,.but the bigger issue is that I failed to change when circumstances changed.

 

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

Eeek!  I’m a great aunt!  My nephew’s wife had a little boy this morning.  

[lurkyloo]

Dreading the chat with the principal scheduled for noon.  Also set to talk to associate superintendent on Monday since personnel matters go through there.  Principal says she agrees with my asks which were having a second adult in gym class for DS and training for the teacher.
I‘m not sure it’s enough.  DH pointed out the problems with this teacher and DS were pretty extreme in first grade and put it that way, no friggin kidding DS wasn’t willing to talk to her about being hurt.  I also heard from the neighbor I asked for referrals that her daughter‘s classmate also broke a bone in this gym teacher‘s class, last year she thinks. I think they have a serious problem here.
I have a call scheduled with a personal injury attorney next week as well.

[lurkyloo]

Hugs Pink.  This is so hard all round.  I really hope your respective therapists are able to squeeze in ad hoc sessions.

[countrygirl2]

I had few work places that gave me support. I enjoyed the work, but not the politics or many of the people. But that was just me. I'm so glad all that is past me, yes, in our everyday lives so many stressors pulling at us. You have to be strong to deal with it. 

I did for years and on my last job, I got up one day and walked out and never went back, I was done. Stupid move I'm sure, but it got to that point.

[countrygirl2]

Grandson got in trouble at school, he was taking the teachers dry erasers apart to get the magnets out. I'm sure he was planning to build something. So they punish him by no recess. 

The child has a curiosity beyond belief, he wants to learn and what is in the classes he is in 3rd grade he already knows. I hate to see that crushed to make him fit in a box. I told son, surely there is somewhere he can go to let this blossom and flourish. What a waste and no recess will just make him more antsy.

The teacher had him trying to glue them back together again. LOL!

[daisylu]

Eating a spicy shrimp roll that I picked up after rescuing DD yesterday. Wednesday is $5 sushi day at the store inside the grocery store. It is delicious.

And I may have a spicy California roll in the fridge for dinner. 😉

[daisylu]

And today is booby squeezing day.

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

Sept 28, 2023 9:50:05 GMT -5 daisylu said:

And today is booby squeezing day.

Ouch!

[azucena]

DH and I saw Kevin James last night. Very funny, elaborate story teller; had us laughing for sure. We both enjoyed that it was clean comedy. No raunchiness, no cursing.

DH made fun of my YM ways as we were in the second to last row of the theater with tickets that were $50/each including fees. 

Ticketmaster hit me with a notice that James Murray of Impractical Jokers will be at local club in Dec. Bought tickets for that. We both enjoyed Impractical Jokers when they were in town a few months ago.

Having tickets makes us more intentional about date night.

[lurkyloo]

FFS.  Just got a call from the school, another department, wanting to know if I was going to file a claim and wanting to talk to me about it.  I’m afraid I wasn’t very nice.  I’m also afraid I’m not sorry about that 

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

God I am tired.  I forgot my grandma folder at home and had a tantrum in the car.  Then I realized maybe my lizard brain was trying to tell me something.  So I am letting go on most of her crap today.  I have till next Thursday to get it all done.

I did download her current bank statements, a copy of the deposit from the sale of the house and a copy of the original check.  That's simple enough to do online.

I am so done people-ing and being responsible.  I almost punched DH because he was like "You're doing God's work honey".   Gee I don't see anyone else in this clusterf*ck doing things for free out of the goodness of their hearts.    Doing the right thing/the Lord's work is not a reward or any kind of motivation for me anymore.  

We are not sure GU can sign a will.  The nurse leans towards no but said to ask the social worker.  I gave the paperwork to my dad and said we can at least try.   All we need is a yes and a scribble.  If he cannot do even that much then so be it.  We yeet the problem 1-2 years down the road because I ain't got brain space for it at the moment.

We lose nothing if we try.  We stand to gain a lot if we succeed.

I get his frustration though.  He said he supposes it's a small victory that grandma's nursing home wouldn't get it.   Still doesn't make either of us happy to see every thing they ever owed or worked for go to the state.  

We had a long vent session about it.  We don't know what was going through their heads and we likely don't want to know.  All we can do is clean up the mess they have made.

I said at the very least grandma did save which bought her a ticket into a non-shithole nursing home.  Could she have avoided it if she had made better decisions?  Possibly but at least we aren't dealing with two GUs.  She had more common sense than he did in that regard. 

And yeah she made the dumb decision to move to Treynor based solely on cheap property taxes but at least she was in Iowa.  She could ahve stayed in freaking Kansas.  She could have moved out there with or next to GU and then we're having to drive all over the place.   At least she was here in the state that we live in and therefore went to a home close by us.

Things could be a hell of a lot worse. 

[wvugurl26]

Oh I'm gonna drive out there and punch drama's DH. There is no reward in doing the lord's work here. Only more hassle and headaches.