what are you doing right now?

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 14:29:44 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

Sept 15, 2023 14:09:15 GMT -5 weltz said:

I'm sorry you're still hurting.   What do you put in your rub?

I found where I’d saved it on my Ipad. Here it is:

4 T. stone ground mustard
3 T. brown sugar
2 tsp. garlic powder
2 tsp. smoked paprika
1 tsp. dried thyme
1 tsp. onion powder
1 tsp. salt
1 tsp. pepper

I don’t use the ground mustard though. I rub yellow mustard all over the shoulder before I put the rub on.

Thanks.

[weltz]

This new laptop is a huge thing....so many more keys.  I keep hitting the wrong ones.

[NastyWoman]

Sept 15, 2023 14:06:30 GMT -5 weltz said:

I have a  brand new lenovo pc instead of a cheap  chromebook. 
I'm not used to it. i lost all my info

Sorry you lost your info but I am happy you found "your way home" to us

[giramomma]

Sept 15, 2023 14:38:01 GMT -5 weltz said:

This new laptop is a huge thing....so many more keys.  I keep hitting the wrong ones.

That's super frustrating. I know I can't use our home laptop because I'm so used to my work laptop.

[seriousthistime]

Yay, looking forward to more weltschmerz posts.  

countrygirl2 , so sorry to hear there's a malignancy but definitely urge him to get it treated.  Tell him you need him and can't live without him if you have to!  Guilt works sometimes. I have no firsthand experience with a partner who had prostate cancer but I do know two men who had it and got it treated, and both are still alive and healthy.  Spreading to the bones would worry me.  It is definitely not a way to end a life if you have other options.  We all go sometime, but I hear that prostate cancer that's spread to the bones is very, very painful. 

I think you are doing the absolute right thing selling your rentals and hopefully spending more time near your DS, DDIL, and DGS. I hope your DH will use this as a prompt not to postpone what makes him happy.   Being near loved ones is a good reason to move. Many, many people make changes in their lives when they face a health scare.  It reminds us that we are mortal, whether or not the health scare materializes into something serious.  

[andi9899]

My boxing instructor decided that out workout yesterday was to be all core. My abs are not happy today.

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

It looks like the department is waking up to the fact that other departments are trying to poach their talent and said talent is taking interest in being poached.

I had a impromtu meeting with my boss boss yesterday.  We talked about the tech position, and he thought I should have taken it so I could be groomed to be an Associate Microbiologist.  I said that's not how they communicated the tech job to me.  Based on the information given I felt that at the moment turning it down was the better option.  Which he understood.

My next level would be a Tech III here.  He is thinking instead of moving me to the easier tests like they usually have techs do they'll have me start leaning HPLC again and maybe Mass Spec.  That way if someone else leaves I can take their place as an Associate. 

They want me to succeed career wise but would also like to keep their talent.  It has been made clear to them I want to rise above my current position.  Making a path for that to happen here retains me.

After all the crap with MIL, mom, GU and my grandmother I have been thinking hard about my life and where I want it to go. It's I have slowly reawakened to the fact that I am ambitious, I do have drive.  I am smart, I am talented.  I am a valuable employee.  I said I accepted the fact I won't get my PhD in academia which what I spent most of my life planning for.  I tried medical lab work and it will be a cold day in hell before I do that again.  Since then I've been drifting.

I will be 40 in December it is way overdue to start looking into the next phase of my career.  I am finally in a company where I can actually do that. 

I told them I am not trying to hurry up and leave.  It's not a matter of I am unhappy and looking to escape.  I am experimenting and throwing things at the wall to see what sticks. It's good practice and who knows it may lead to the next thing for me.

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 11:10:04 GMT -5 countrygirl2 said:

Well good news and bad news. The PO guy called and I sold him the post office. Now we will start on the information to do so. They close at their own title company and that is fine. So we are getting $55,000 out of something I paid $16000 for and had income for 4 or 5 years. So that is done. I will put pencil to paper and see if we can afford to sell the other house too.

That money will build sons garage without us taking out of savings plus we can cover with gifting to each of them. They are very happy and we are too. It's something we will temporarily use and they will have. Son needs to replace his patio, so said it will be a good time to do that too. They had to tear out part of it to get to the septic!! He said why did they do that? So that won't be covered any longer.

Ok, my dear hubs. He had cancer show up in all the biopsies 8 of them I believe. They gave us options of surgery or radiation. Hubs said what if I do nothing. They said it is a 7 out of 10 now, moderate but if he does nothing will go into his bones. Still in 2 weeks they are doing a bone scan and go from there. They have to get approval from the insurance company. They said this will be a robotic surgery, I've not heard of that before. Knowing hubs if it has gone into his bones he will do nothing. The problem he has with either of the other procedures there is a 30% chance of incontinence, he is not pleased with that. I think he is only doing something because I want him too, I don't want to lose him, at least not yet.

But we are both happy that till now we have never had really serious illnesses and ongoing like so many people have and do. So we will deal with this. As he told the PA, we all die sometime. We both realize that life is for a finite time.

What we wonder is how it got so bad. He had blood work the year before and said at his age should have done a PSA, neither of us remembers if they did. If so it got this bad in a year?? Doesn't seem logical.

PLEASE urge him to get treated while it hasn't spread to his bones.  He can still live a long time with treatment.

[raeoflyte]

Thinking of you CG.

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 14:56:00 GMT -5 giramomma said:

Sept 15, 2023 14:38:01 GMT -5 weltz said:

This new laptop is a huge thing....so many more keys.  I keep hitting the wrong ones.

That's super frustrating. I know I can't use our home laptop because I'm so used to my work laptop.

It is. It's so different.  It will take a while to get used to.  It took my computer guy an hour and a half to set it up.
I told the guy at the STAPLES store  I don't care about CPUs and RAMs or memory.....I just wanted a big screen, as I'm pretty blind.
He went in the back and found this one. It wasn't on display. He told me it's $250, so I took it. 
My computer guy was shocked! He said it's worth about a grand, so I did good.

[jerseygirl]

Sept 15, 2023 14:23:59 GMT -5 weltz said:

I had my yearly appointment at the cardiac clinic.  The EKG was normal and my doc took me off the Bisoprolol.  
He said I should have a lot more energy now. I don't know why it's typing in bold. I keep removing the bold icon but it comes right back.

Your computer is feeling the energy and bolding!

[chiver78]

I feel you, hard. I turned 45 2w ago tomorrow, and I still don't want to manage other people. and I feel like that's a strike against me when I apply for jobs, but who knows. I'm happy with what I'm doing, with solid management to absorb questions and back me up. 

I actually applied to that company with the psychedelics. haven't heard anything just yet, for that or any of the others I applied to a few weeks earlier. I might need to tweak the resume, and figure out a cover letter, if at least a form template. 

[Pink Cashmere]

So Mister’s idea to cook for his family tomorrow is turning out to be more expensive than he thought. He is becoming aware (again) of how much money I use to spend to keep basic items in stock. I’ve been slacking with that, because my money got funny with me missing so much work.

So basic stuff like ice for the cooler, to keep people out of our freezer getting ice, since the dispenser in the door no longer works, and I usually have a few bags in the deep freezer, just in case, foil pans that are easier to use when grilling than real dishes, paper plates…. We should have some, but apparently not, since I can’t find them, disposable cups, I did stop buying them because the girls would use them every day instead of glasses, which is not why I try to keep them on hand (for times like this), and even grocery items that I stock up on when they are on sale…. all of that is missing and we don’t even have charcoal or wood chips. 

I’m not happy that he has to buy a lot of stuff that we would normally already have, but just like when we ran through all our stock of household supplies like cleaning stuff and laundry detergent, and he had to buy it all, it made it clear just how much stuff I’ve done that he’s taken for granted. And him having to buy all that stuff now, shows him that it cost more than a couple of dollars to keep our house stocked with necessities, let alone have backups because I use to buy several of an item when I could get a good price on it. My shopping habits is why it took a while for us to start running out of stuff. 

It means something to me for him to see firsthand, how much money and effort I put into making sure we always have basic stuff and for example, not only do we not have to run to the store to buy laundry detergent when we need to wash clothes, our children can come over and wash all their clothes, and if the laundry detergent runs out inside the house, still nobody has to go to the store, because there is more in the garage…. Because there have been times when I’ve felt that the things I do to maintain our household are taken for granted and not appreciated when I ask for cooperation to keep things orderly.

So when I started telling him a couple hours ago, all the stuff we don’t have for tomorrow, he was like DAMN! Well sir, this was your idea, not mine. I guess he wants to do it because he feels guilty or something for not having a repast Wednesday. When my family provided all that food after his Mom’s funeral, that was several hundreds of dollars worth of food and supplies, besides the time and effort to cook and set everything up, and they would not accept any money. So he’s already had a freebie. It’s unfortunate of course, that the time came again so soon, but this was his idea, and it costs money.

And to be honest, I feel kind of funny about it anyway, because besides Aunt D and her husband, and I include her husband because the questions he was asking when we were making arrangements for Mister’s Dad, about the difference in cost paying cash vs using life insurance, and after they got the costs down, him asking Mister if he had it, I believe he would’ve helped pay for it if Mister hadn’t been able to….. nobody offered to help Mister do anything, or offered him a quarter if he needed one. Baby Sister even made things more complicated by calling him boo hoo crying and asking him to change the date of the funeral. And at the visitation, she asked me and favorite niece who had cooked dinner, which rubbed me the wrong way.

So why are we feeding these folks? Mister’s friend D and his wife did more to try to help and see about him than most of his family did. And it’s not all of his family that I’m feeling crazy about, just certain people. 

OD and her Mom handled the obituary, but I wouldn’t feel any type of negative way about them even if they hadn’t taken that off Mister’s plate. I do appreciate that they did though.

The Pastor of one of the churches Mister’s Dad use to play the organ for, the one that reached out to Mister last week, did bring him $150 after the burial, a gift from his church for Mister to buy dinner for his household with, since we weren’t having a repast. That was very kind of him, and appreciated. Some of these other folks can kick rocks in flip flops as far as I’m concerned. 

But I will try to let all of that go, and try to be a good hostess tomorrow. Emphasis on “try”. 

I am rambling again, so I will hush now. Again lol.

[Pink Cashmere]

Sept 15, 2023 15:42:54 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

It looks like the department is waking up to the fact that other departments are trying to poach their talent and said talent is taking interest in being poached.

I had a impromtu meeting with my boss boss yesterday.  We talked about the tech position, and he thought I should have taken it so I could be groomed to be an Associate Microbiologist.  I said that's not how they communicated the tech job to me.  Based on the information given I felt that at the moment turning it down was the better option.  Which he understood.

My next level would be a Tech III here.  He is thinking instead of moving me to the easier tests like they usually have techs do they'll have me start leaning HPLC again and maybe Mass Spec.  That way if someone else leaves I can take their place as an Associate. 

They want me to succeed career wise but would also like to keep their talent.  It has been made clear to them I want to rise above my current position.  Making a path for that to happen here retains me.

After all the crap with MIL, mom, GU and my grandmother I have been thinking hard about my life and where I want it to go. It's I have slowly reawakened to the fact that I am ambitious, I do have drive.  I am smart, I am talented.  I am a valuable employee.  I said I accepted the fact I won't get my PhD in academia which what I spent most of my life planning for.  I tried medical lab work and it will be a cold day in hell before I do that again.  Since then I've been drifting.

I will be 40 in December it is way overdue to start looking into the next phase of my career.  I am finally in a company where I can actually do that. 

I told them I am not trying to hurry up and leave.  It's not a matter of I am unhappy and looking to escape.  I am experimenting and throwing things at the wall to see what sticks. It's good practice and who knows it may lead to the next thing for me.

I really, really want you to hold on to the bolded and keep reminding yourself of those FACTS while you figure out your next step, and even when you get discouraged. Be confident in your knowledge and your talents, and don’t let anyone make you feel or think anything different about your capabilities, not even you.

As always, I am rooting for you!

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

Sept 15, 2023 12:09:04 GMT -5 countrygirl2 said:

We went to the best hospital system here. It's considered a good one. DD and I go there for most major things we deal with. They are using a robotic method to do the surgery. They want to give him 2 weeks to decide but he already has. We are comfortable with them.

We are ok, Hubs and I are very practical people and consider it just part of life. I'm just happy he is going to do something. Also son has more trouble up there getting into docs than here. And I'm not sure our insurance would work up there either.

The other issue is noone to care for DD if we went to Indi. I'm not planning on dumping things on son and DIL. They will have enough one day.

Unless you are in an advantage program, it should work nationwide.  However, if you move to WA, you’ll have to change plans so something local to where you are.
 
 100 miles north of Seattle, our choices are less than Seattle.  I know you get more options in Snohomish county southward, but no idea what it is like in the counties south of King.

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

I found nearly new black platform converse sneakers for $5 at the thrift store.

They retail for over $100.

Just need a wash and scrubbing with a magic eraser.

[giramomma]

Sept 15, 2023 12:58:24 GMT -5 countrygirl2 said:

I know if the bone scan comes back bad, he is very likely to choose the course of doing nothing, so I hope its ok. Also if this did all occur, in just a year, it is aggressive.

They should be able to test the cancer to see if it's the aggressive kind or not.

Just like, when they took my biopsy they could say what kind of breast cancer I had.

They can't what they are dealing with from the mere fact that cancer is present.

And if your DH's numbers were accurrate, his PSA number showed that it was likely cancer, but didn't determine that it was cancer.

Here, from this article, PSA over 20 indicates aggressive prostate cancer

www.newyorkurologyspecialists.com/prostate-cancer/elevated-psa-a-guide-to-men/

You should also know what your husband's gleason score is.

www.cancer.org/cancer/types/prostate-cancer/detection-diagnosis-staging/how-diagnosed.html

The gleason score was key to getting my dad on a treatment that worked.

I know I should be the last person telling you what to do. Your husband's body, his choice.

This is absolutely the time where you should be arming yourself with information so that you know whether or not your husband is getting treated properly.

I couldn't do it, that because I had just lost my dad, and I had to keep it together to stay strong to fight the mfer.

I also had the luxury of going to the best hospital for cancer in my state. It also ranks 30th (out of 175) in the nation.

So, I felt comfortable telling folks just to treat me.

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

We just got back from Costco with the back of my car full.  I need to run up there later to fill up with gas since the lines were going out the entrance.  We are going to to meet TD’s mom tomorrow, and can’t do it on 1/4 a tank.  The gas bar will likely be uglier tomorrow morning.

Going to make a pot of pasta sauce this afternoon, but since we stopped at 5 Guys for lunch, the idea of more food is blech.  

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 16:57:50 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

I found nearly new black platform converse sneakers for $5 at the thrift store.

They retail for over $100.

Just need a wash and scrubbing with a magic eraser.

I just bought these yesterday .... regularly $140,  for $7.99 at the Salvation Army store. Bronx brand.

[weltz]

I'm not trying to out-do you.  It's just that we both got a hell of a deal on sneakers at the same time.

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Sept 15, 2023 17:50:33 GMT -5 weltz said:

I'm not trying to out-do you.  It's just that we both got a hell of a deal on sneakers at the same time.

Oh no you're fine! I love sharing thrift store finds.

I found a Calvin Klien sweater and Guess sneakers awhile ago. I told Gwen this would have made me hot shit in the 80s/90s.

She was not impressed.

DH was impressed.🤣

Most of my clothes come from thrift or vintage anymore. It's rare I buy anything retail outside of underwear and jeans.

It doesn't help fast fashion has reached the worst of the 90s. Some of those things shouldn't have existed the first time let alone be brought back from the dead.

[weltz]

We have 3 new hamburger joints right here...all 100% halal. My son is pissed that he can't get bacon on his burger.
We also have 2 Muslim real estate companies in my neighbourhood, a Muslim dental group, a Muslim Income Tax place, 3 Muslim grocery stores, a Muslim cell phone store, and so much more.

No, the Muslims aren't taking over! That's just crazy talk!

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 17:56:24 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Sept 15, 2023 17:50:33 GMT -5 weltz said:

I'm not trying to out-do you.  It's just that we both got a hell of a deal on sneakers at the same time.

Oh no you're fine! I love sharing thrift store finds.

I found a Calvin Klien sweater and Guess sneakers awhile ago. I told Gwen this would have made me hot shit in the 80s/90s.

She was not impressed.

DH was impressed.🤣

Most of my clothes come from thrift or vintage anymore. It's rare I buy anything retail outside of underwear and jeans.

It doesn't help fast fashion has reached the worst of the 90s. Some of those things shouldn't have existed the first time let alone be brought back from the dead.

I try not to buy ANY fast fashion. It's so detrimental to the planet.  I don't remember when I bought anything new.
Yesterday I also bought a really nice fleece sherpa jacket, in pink. $6.99.

Reduce, Reuse, Recycle!

[Pink Cashmere]

So now Mister is angry with me. Somebody used the last of the onion powder and left the empty container on the kitchen counter. I need onion powder for what I’m supposed to do tonight. He asked if I wanted to run to the store for him. Not really. And he got mad. 

Meanwhile, I’ve been cleaning the house and the kitchen, preparing for him to have everything clean that he will need to cook and for guests. He has been working in the yard today, after picking up a grocery order this morning that me made, that left a lot of stuff off.

And we have a whole grown person laid up in the house that has not been tasked with or asked to do anything, at all, as usual. Notice that I said in my prior post that OD and her Mom handled the obituary. I don’t know what it is about YD that nobody ever expects or requires her to do anything. 

If not for DS taking it upon himself to clean the carpet in the living room last week, I would have had to do that today too. He doesn’t even live here, but he does random things to help out when he comes over, even DD and my Grandbabies help when they come over, with things like sweeping or taking the trash out. Why is it that they do more when they visit, than somebody that lives here and has their own private space, a bedroom that no one uses whether or not she is here?

Maybe I would’ve felt like going to the store if I hadn’t been busy all day doing other stuff to try to prepare for tomorrow, in between running to the bathroom and dealing with my unruly ass stomach. Or maybe I’m just a bitch.

This was not my idea, and Mister decided just yesterday, to do it. He did not consult with me about the grocery order he made, and it’s not my fault that he missed a lot of stuff. Maybe I’m wrong, and being like the rest of his family when I said not really, when he asked if I wanted to run to the store. I had just finished cleaning the kitchen so he could start cooking, including wiping down cabinets and nooks and crannies, and cleaning microwaves, and making the kitchen spotless overall, in preparation for his guests, so they wouldn’t think the food we offer them was questionable, because our kitchen isn’t super clean. It’s a known fact  anyway, that I hate having to jump up and run to the store for ANYTHING, on short notice. 

So now he’s mad at me, and I am tempted to say fuck preparing that shoulder he wants smoked, fuck everything else that needs to be done around the house, and fuck his guests. I don’t feel good anyway, I can just take my ass to bed, and since I’ve not eaten anything today, just focus on hoping my stomach stops acting a fool and hurting sometime tonight. Like ASAP, please and thank you.

[busymom]

Sept 15, 2023 17:56:24 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Sept 15, 2023 17:50:33 GMT -5 weltz said:

I'm not trying to out-do you.  It's just that we both got a hell of a deal on sneakers at the same time.

Oh no you're fine! I love sharing thrift store finds.

I found a Calvin Klien sweater and Guess sneakers awhile ago. I told Gwen this would have made me hot shit in the 80s/90s.

She was not impressed.

DH was impressed.🤣

Most of my clothes come from thrift or vintage anymore. It's rare I buy anything retail outside of underwear and jeans.

It doesn't help fast fashion has reached the worst of the 90s. Some of those things shouldn't have existed the first time let alone be brought back from the dead.

    DD & her friends are totally into thrifting.  In fact, they often try to "out-thrift" each other.  That COULD explain why their student loans are paid off, & some of them now own houses, unlike some folks.  

[busymom]

Sept 15, 2023 18:04:16 GMT -5 weltz said:

We have 3 new hamburger joints right here...all 100% halal. My son is pissed that he can't get bacon on his burger.
We also have 2 Muslim real estate companies in my neighbourhood, a Muslim dental group, a Muslim Income Tax place, 3 Muslim grocery stores, a Muslim cell phone store, and so much more.

No, the Muslims aren't taking over! That's just crazy talk!

    Our state has been very welcoming to immigrants from Muslim countries.  However, they're moving out of the city towards our community, and we've got at least 4 Muslim families now living within a city block of me.  The women are very nice, but I'm not going to comment on the males, 'cause that'll get me in trouble...      We are getting more Muslim businesses nearby too, including the recent opening of a Halal grocery store.  It DOES feel like they're taking over.  They may not want to join us for a meal, as we do tend to eat stuff like bacon & pulled pork.  

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 18:36:43 GMT -5 busymom said:

Sept 15, 2023 18:04:16 GMT -5 weltz said:

We have 3 new hamburger joints right here...all 100% halal. My son is pissed that he can't get bacon on his burger.
We also have 2 Muslim real estate companies in my neighbourhood, a Muslim dental group, a Muslim Income Tax place, 3 Muslim grocery stores, a Muslim cell phone store, and so much more.

No, the Muslims aren't taking over! That's just crazy talk!

    Our state has been very welcoming to immigrants from Muslim countries.  However, they're moving out of the city towards our community, and we've got at least 4 Muslim families now living within a city block of me.  The women are very nice, but I'm not going to comment on the males, 'cause that'll get me in trouble...      We are getting more Muslim businesses nearby too, including the recent opening of a Halal grocery store.  It DOES feel like they're taking over.  They may not want to join us for a meal, as we do tend to eat stuff like bacon & pulled pork.  

I did speak to a Muslim male who said all dogs should be eliminated from my neighbourhood...they're haram.
Dream on, asshole!  

(It will happen. Just not yet.)

[NancysSummerSip]

Sept 15, 2023 16:08:57 GMT -5 weltz said:

Sept 15, 2023 11:10:04 GMT -5 countrygirl2 said:

Well good news and bad news. The PO guy called and I sold him the post office. Now we will start on the information to do so. They close at their own title company and that is fine. So we are getting $55,000 out of something I paid $16000 for and had income for 4 or 5 years. So that is done. I will put pencil to paper and see if we can afford to sell the other house too.

That money will build sons garage without us taking out of savings plus we can cover with gifting to each of them. They are very happy and we are too. It's something we will temporarily use and they will have. Son needs to replace his patio, so said it will be a good time to do that too. They had to tear out part of it to get to the septic!! He said why did they do that? So that won't be covered any longer.

Ok, my dear hubs. He had cancer show up in all the biopsies 8 of them I believe. They gave us options of surgery or radiation. Hubs said what if I do nothing. They said it is a 7 out of 10 now, moderate but if he does nothing will go into his bones. Still in 2 weeks they are doing a bone scan and go from there. They have to get approval from the insurance company. They said this will be a robotic surgery, I've not heard of that before. Knowing hubs if it has gone into his bones he will do nothing. The problem he has with either of the other procedures there is a 30% chance of incontinence, he is not pleased with that. I think he is only doing something because I want him too, I don't want to lose him, at least not yet.

But we are both happy that till now we have never had really serious illnesses and ongoing like so many people have and do. So we will deal with this. As he told the PA, we all die sometime. We both realize that life is for a finite time.

What we wonder is how it got so bad. He had blood work the year before and said at his age should have done a PSA, neither of us remembers if they did. If so it got this bad in a year?? Doesn't seem logical.

PLEASE urge him to get treated while it hasn't spread to his bones.  He can still live a long time with treatment.

I agree with Weltz on this. So many cancers are treatable now. Once in the bones, it is a different story. Granted, it is his decision. Either way, your life affairs should be in order NOW. Then, no matter what happens, you can move forward with the peace of mind knowing the details are dealt with.

I had to do this when my DH had his first stroke. Saw an attorney, had our wills and medical POAs and everything done, down to the list of bank and pension accounts. A road map of where to find what. And to keep our estates out of probate court.

Two months later, he had his second stroke. Neither was bad, but both have taken a lot from him. He could not make those same decisions now.

[weltz]

Sept 15, 2023 18:18:27 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

So now Mister is angry with me. Somebody used the last of the onion powder and left the empty container on the kitchen counter. I need onion powder for what I’m supposed to do tonight. He asked if I wanted to run to the store for him. Not really. And he got mad. 

Meanwhile, I’ve been cleaning the house and the kitchen, preparing for him to have everything clean that he will need to cook and for guests. He has been working in the yard today, after picking up a grocery order this morning that me made, that left a lot of stuff off.

And we have a whole grown person laid up in the house that has not been tasked with or asked to do anything, at all, as usual. Notice that I said in my prior post that OD and her Mom handled the obituary. I don’t know what it is about YD that nobody ever expects or requires her to do anything. 

If not for DS taking it upon himself to clean the carpet in the living room last week, I would have had to do that today too. He doesn’t even live here, but he does random things to help out when he comes over, even DD and my Grandbabies help when they come over, with things like sweeping or taking the trash out. Why is it that they do more when they visit, than somebody that lives here and has their own private space, a bedroom that no one uses whether or not she is here?

Maybe I would’ve felt like going to the store if I hadn’t been busy all day doing other stuff to try to prepare for tomorrow, in between running to the bathroom and dealing with my unruly ass stomach. Or maybe I’m just a bitch.

This was not my idea, and Mister decided just yesterday, to do it. He did not consult with me about the grocery order he made, and it’s not my fault that he missed a lot of stuff. Maybe I’m wrong, and being like the rest of his family when I said not really, when he asked if I wanted to run to the store. I had just finished cleaning the kitchen so he could start cooking, including wiping down cabinets and nooks and crannies, and cleaning microwaves, and making the kitchen spotless overall, in preparation for his guests, so they wouldn’t think the food we offer them was questionable, because our kitchen isn’t super clean. It’s a known fact  anyway, that I hate having to jump up and run to the store for ANYTHING, on short notice. 

So now he’s mad at me, and I am tempted to say fuck preparing that shoulder he wants smoked, fuck everything else that needs to be done around the house, and fuck his guests. I don’t feel good anyway, I can just take my ass to bed, and since I’ve not eaten anything today, just focus on hoping my stomach stops acting a fool and hurting sometime tonight. Like ASAP, please and thank you.

Not a problem. Tell him to rub a cut onion on the haram pork shoulder.

[andi9899]

The people behind me are moving. I don't know if they've lived there a year yet. They are probably over the BS too.