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Post by Pink Cashmere on Oct 5, 2024 17:52:43 GMT -5
Thinking about my last post…. 2 months after we moved into our house, DS came to visit for the first time in a few years. He was still living halfway across the country at the time. We had a fish fry to celebrate DS’s birthday while he was here, and to let our families see our new (to us) house.
It hits differently in hindsight, but that evening Mister’s Aunt G asked me how do I keep a house that size clean. I don’t remember what I told her, but in hindsight, it was an odd question coming from her, since I’ve seen her house since then, and she lives alone. It also stuck in my head because it confirmed something for me, that whoever else lives in a woman’s house……. a spouse or partner, minor children, adult children, and/or random relatives…. if the house is nasty, the woman is considered to be nasty. She didn’t ask Mister or his daughters about keeping the house clean, she only asked me.
That’s really not for nothing, just something I thought about.
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Post by cooper88 on Oct 5, 2024 18:12:00 GMT -5
I broke into the Halloween candy stash after reading here. I got a Reese's pumpkin.
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Post by Cheesy FL-Vol on Oct 5, 2024 18:15:26 GMT -5
I think I am weird. I am looking forward to early night time. We are “early to bed, early to rise” people and I need darkness to fall asleep better.
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Post by Pink Cashmere on Oct 5, 2024 18:19:41 GMT -5
To ramble some more …… One of the ladies that is a competitor when I work my side gig, has been calling and texting me, just being friendly, and seems to have gotten kind of concerned about me not answering my phone or responding to her texts. I kept saying I was going to at least text her, but I’ve been so crazy that I didn’t. So today, another lady that knows me from my side gig called and then sent me a text asking if I’m okay. The first lady had obviously told her that she was concerned. So I did respond to that text, because the first lady’s husband went to high school with Mister, and I didn’t want them reaching out to Mister asking about me, or either of the ladies reaching out to other people that they know, know me. And none of them would know anything, but may have become just as concerned until eventually somebody contacted Mister and/or showed up at my house. So I felt like I had to say something to try to avoid all of that. I just told her that I just had a lot going on, and please tell the other lady that I do apologize for being non responsive, I will contact them both soon. She responded saying she loves her some Pink, that I am a good and kind person, and to please let her know if there is ever anything she can do to help with whatever I’m going through. She also said she would let the other lady know that she’d heard from me and what I said. I was about to go on a whole tangent about other people in my real life, but I won’t.
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Post by busymom on Oct 5, 2024 18:27:42 GMT -5
I think I am weird. I am looking forward to early night time. We are “early to bed, early to rise” people and I need darkness to fall asleep better. Sorry, I'm just the opposite. The more sunshine the better. In fact, I can accomplish a lot more on a Summer day than on a short Winter day. Except for baking, of course.
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Post by giramomma on Oct 5, 2024 18:34:21 GMT -5
I remembered where I stashed the granny squares.
I am pleased, as I'm starting to remember things.
Unfortunately, I don't remember where the title is to my car. Considering I bought it between my dad's passing before my diagnosis in the middle of the pandemic, I'm allowed.
However, it's a hiccup.
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Post by Pink Cashmere on Oct 5, 2024 18:54:21 GMT -5
Mister just left home “going to the store”. On his way out, he asked if I was going to cook the chicken in the refrigerator. The chicken breasts he took out of the freezer for some random reason a few days ago. So now I’m supposed to figure out what to do with it before it goes bad, if it hasn’t already?
I understand why he is picking fights like that with me, but just because I understand why he is doing that shit, doesn’t mean it’s okay with me or that I’ll just take it.
He has been “going to the store” a lot lately. For reasons that I won’t get into, that is a red flag for me. I haven’t said anything to him about it. When I can manage to keep my wild side under control and be non confrontational if it serves my purpose, I just pay attention and see what happens. Because 1. I mostly do not believe in “coincidence”, I believe that things happen for a reason and 2. I believe that anything I need to know, will be revealed to me without me going looking for it.
#2 has happened in my life more times than I can count, the sticky part has been whether I was ready or not to accept and/or deal with what was being revealed to me.
I’m not saying that Mister is up to no good, I am just sharing what I believe to be true because of what I’ve learned during my own life, and even though I may play or look dumb, stupid or whatever, and even feel like I might be those things sometimes, I am actually none of that. Well maybe a little stupid for getting myself into my current situation, but not so stupid that I won’t figure out how to get myself out of it one way or another.
I’m not cooking the damn chicken breasts. Idc if he gets mad. I’m ordering something for me to eat tonight.
Something somewhere says something like a house divided will not succeed. At least I think so. And I am beyond tired of trying to get my household on one accord. I successfully ran my household for decades before I moved here. So if I’m the woman of the house and responsible for running my household, let me do that. Follow my lead on that, and I will follow your lead on other things. It really doesn’t have to be this complicated.
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Post by NastyWoman on Oct 5, 2024 18:58:05 GMT -5
Summer is still not over here. Tomorrow the 49ers and whoever their opponent is will find out what it feels like to play professional football in triple (barely) digit heat.
My plan for the day is just relaxing and maybe, if I feel the urge, sorting some boxes for decluttering as I can drag the boxes into my cool LR
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Post by raeoflyte on Oct 5, 2024 19:17:33 GMT -5
I think I am weird. I am looking forward to early night time. We are “early to bed, early to rise” people and I need darkness to fall asleep better. Us too. The kids and I don't sleep well during daylight savings because we're not tired at night and exhausted in the mornings. It's ok this time of year but will be a lot better once we change.
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Post by Cheesy FL-Vol on Oct 5, 2024 19:18:40 GMT -5
It is a wonderfully cool, clear, starry night. I can hear crickets and frogs/toads somewhere. It won’t be long before those are quiet too.
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Post by Pink Cashmere on Oct 5, 2024 19:22:20 GMT -5
So now he is stomping around the kitchen cooking the chicken breasts. I would rather be hungry than eat anything he cooks tonight. So I’m just going to order dinner for me. Which will probably cause an argument, but I don’t care.
As much as I bitch and moan and don’t want to live there ever again, I am still grateful that I still have my house if I ever absolutely have no choice but to move back into it. I really, really don’t want to live in that house again. My bad feelings about it, have nothing to do with the house itself, and everything to do with emotions and how it has become something that feels like something akin to a noose around my neck.
This is the “bad” part of starting to come back to life, feeling like I really need to do something about all of the shit that makes me crazy mentally and emotionally, and causes so many stress related physical issues.
But it’s still mostly just trying to keep on keeping on, and trying to get through each day as it comes. But at some point, I’m going to have to make some decisions since I don’t want to be here or there, but don’t know where else I can go realistically.
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Post by raeoflyte on Oct 5, 2024 19:29:41 GMT -5
Ds has finally started practicing piano after 5 years of lessons. This summer I "required" some practicing because we were paying for a lot of lessons abd they didn't have anything else going on but didn't really enforce it. Otherwise I've never pushed the kids to practice. Ds started practicing cello on his last year, and I love to hear him play piano. And he asked me to pull out the flute today and he's working on figuring that out. The only things he can think to ask for for Christmas (that he knows he isn't getting) is a hurdy gurdy and a contra-bass flute. I might get him a theramin. But obscure instruments are his passion.
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Post by raeoflyte on Oct 5, 2024 19:31:56 GMT -5
So now he is stomping around the kitchen cooking the chicken breasts. I would rather be hungry than eat anything he cooks tonight. So I’m just going to order dinner for me. Which will probably cause an argument, but I don’t care. As much as I bitch and moan and don’t want to live there ever again, I am still grateful that I still have my house if I ever absolutely have no choice but to move back into it. I really, really don’t want to live in that house again. My bad feelings about it, have nothing to do with the house itself, and everything to do with emotions and how it has become something that feels like something akin to a noose around my neck. This is the “bad” part of starting to come back to life, feeling like I really need to do something about all of the shit that makes me crazy mentally and emotionally, and causes so many stress related physical issues. But it’s still mostly just trying to keep on keeping on, and trying to get through each day as it comes. But at some point, I’m going to have to make some decisions since I don’t want to be here or there, but don’t know where else I can go realistically. I'm so sorry Pink. That is a crappy way to live. I think Chloe was onto something and if/when you want brainstorming ideas let us know.
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Post by toomuchreality on Oct 5, 2024 19:37:45 GMT -5
Ds has finally started practicing piano after 5 years of lessons. This summer I "required" some practicing because we were paying for a lot of lessons abd they didn't have anything else going on but didn't really enforce it. Otherwise I've never pushed the kids to practice. Ds started practicing cello on his last year, and I love to hear him play piano. And he asked me to pull out the flute today and he's working on figuring that out. The only things he can think to ask for for Christmas (that he knows he isn't getting) is a hurdy gurdy and a contra-bass flute. I might get him a theramin. But obscure instruments are his passion. Holy Moly! That flute is HUGE!
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Post by toomuchreality on Oct 5, 2024 19:39:15 GMT -5
So now he is stomping around the kitchen cooking the chicken breasts. I would rather be hungry than eat anything he cooks tonight. So I’m just going to order dinner for me. Which will probably cause an argument, but I don’t care. As much as I bitch and moan and don’t want to live there ever again, I am still grateful that I still have my house if I ever absolutely have no choice but to move back into it. I really, really don’t want to live in that house again. My bad feelings about it, have nothing to do with the house itself, and everything to do with emotions and how it has become something that feels like something akin to a noose around my neck. This is the “bad” part of starting to come back to life, feeling like I really need to do something about all of the shit that makes me crazy mentally and emotionally, and causes so many stress related physical issues. But it’s still mostly just trying to keep on keeping on, and trying to get through each day as it comes. But at some point, I’m going to have to make some decisions since I don’t want to be here or there, but don’t know where else I can go realistically. I'm so sorry. It sounds miserable and I hate to see you that way.
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Post by NomoreDramaQ1015 on Oct 5, 2024 19:39:34 GMT -5
Wrestling with getting rid of my mom's antique writing desk.
It belonged to my great grandmother. Possibly great great.
Problem is we just have no room for it. I have it over here because there was no room across the street after grandkids came.
I thought I was ready but as we pushed it into the living room I got overwhelmed and ran off to hide in the shower.
DH offered to put it in the basement and make it Gwen's problem someday if I'm not ready.
It's been two years though. Why is the damn desk eating me alive of all things?!
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Post by Knee Deep in Water Chloe on Oct 5, 2024 19:46:10 GMT -5
DD#2 and I just finished up the party shopping for DD#1’s baby shower next week. Well, except for food. It was a fun time to spend together. We’re headed to dinner now with DH and DD’s boyfriend.
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Post by raeoflyte on Oct 5, 2024 19:51:03 GMT -5
Wrestling with getting rid of my mom's antique writing desk. It belonged to my great grandmother. Possibly great great. Problem is we just have no room for it. I have it over here because there was no room across the street after grandkids came. I thought I was ready but as we pushed it into the living room I got overwhelmed and ran off to hide in the shower. DH offered to put it in the basement and make it Gwen's problem someday if I'm not ready. It's been two years though. Why is the damn desk eating me alive of all things?! I'm not a stuff person, but when I hit that wall with something I just figure I'm not ready and that's what basements are made for.
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Post by NastyWoman on Oct 5, 2024 19:56:59 GMT -5
Wrestling with getting rid of my mom's antique writing desk. It belonged to my great grandmother. Possibly great great. Problem is we just have no room for it. I have it over here because there was no room across the street after grandkids came. I thought I was ready but as we pushed it into the living room I got overwhelmed and ran off to hide in the shower. DH offered to put it in the basement and make it Gwen's problem someday if I'm not ready. It's been two years though. Why is the damn desk eating me alive of all things?! Take DH up on his offer to put it in the basement. You are still so very young and chances are there will come a day, before you die, that you can let go of that desk. And if not, so be it - either you will bring it up when your kids have flown the coop and you have space for it or it stays where it is. There is no reason for you to obsess about it now
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Post by Pink Cashmere on Oct 5, 2024 19:58:01 GMT -5
So now he is stomping around the kitchen cooking the chicken breasts. I would rather be hungry than eat anything he cooks tonight. So I’m just going to order dinner for me. Which will probably cause an argument, but I don’t care. As much as I bitch and moan and don’t want to live there ever again, I am still grateful that I still have my house if I ever absolutely have no choice but to move back into it. I really, really don’t want to live in that house again. My bad feelings about it, have nothing to do with the house itself, and everything to do with emotions and how it has become something that feels like something akin to a noose around my neck. This is the “bad” part of starting to come back to life, feeling like I really need to do something about all of the shit that makes me crazy mentally and emotionally, and causes so many stress related physical issues. But it’s still mostly just trying to keep on keeping on, and trying to get through each day as it comes. But at some point, I’m going to have to make some decisions since I don’t want to be here or there, but don’t know where else I can go realistically. I'm so sorry Pink. That is a crappy way to live. I think Chloe was onto something and if/when you want brainstorming ideas let us know. As many reasons as I have to not want to live in my house again, the biggest one is that I don’t want to share a home with my Mom again. I could maybe get over most of the other emotional issues I have about that house, but I can NOT live with my Mom and not be a crazy person. I wish I could, because in my culture, Mothers have a special place and are to be honored, respected, and taken care of, but my Mother is something different and I just can’t do all of that, especially if it means living with her. I am willing to answer to God himself about breaking the rules, because I just can’t do it. In my mind, He knows who my Mom is and who I am, since He made both of us, so He should understand, even if nobody on this earth does. But at the same time, I am a generous person who does random things on the spur of a moment, if I can, for strangers and people I kinda know that are are in need, and even I can’t make that make sense when I refuse to do certain things for people I am actually related to. So I guess if y’all want a project to try to help me, it would be how to get my 74yo Mom who has several health conditions and limited mobility because she has refused to do what she needs to do to get a hip replacement, out of my house, without making her be homeless. She’s been given leads to senior housing from church members and offers to help her move. She pretends that it is helpful, but still literally refuses to move anywhere else, regardless of what help is available to her.
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Post by tallguy on Oct 5, 2024 20:07:02 GMT -5
Mister just left home “going to the store”. On his way out, he asked if I was going to cook the chicken in the refrigerator. The chicken breasts he took out of the freezer for some random reason a few days ago. So now I’m supposed to figure out what to do with it before it goes bad, if it hasn’t already? I understand why he is picking fights like that with me, but just because I understand why he is doing that shit, doesn’t mean it’s okay with me or that I’ll just take it. He has been “going to the store” a lot lately. For reasons that I won’t get into, that is a red flag for me. I haven’t said anything to him about it. When I can manage to keep my wild side under control and be non confrontational if it serves my purpose, I just pay attention and see what happens. Because 1. I mostly do not believe in “coincidence”, I believe that things happen for a reason and 2. I believe that anything I need to know, will be revealed to me without me going looking for it. #2 has happened in my life more times than I can count, the sticky part has been whether I was ready or not to accept and/or deal with what was being revealed to me. I’m not saying that Mister is up to no good, I am just sharing what I believe to be true because of what I’ve learned during my own life, and even though I may play or look dumb, stupid or whatever, and even feel like I might be those things sometimes, I am actually none of that. Well maybe a little stupid for getting myself into my current situation, but not so stupid that I won’t figure out how to get myself out of it one way or another. I’m not cooking the damn chicken breasts. Idc if he gets mad. I’m ordering something for me to eat tonight. Something somewhere says something like a house divided will not succeed. At least I think so. And I am beyond tired of trying to get my household on one accord. I successfully ran my household for decades before I moved here. So if I’m the woman of the house and responsible for running my household, let me do that. Follow my lead on that, and I will follow your lead on other things. It really doesn’t have to be this complicated. "A house divided against itself cannot stand." Originally (?) it was from the Bible. (It may have been in use before that but can certainly be found there.) Among the many subsequent uses of the phrase, perhaps the most famous was Abraham Lincoln's "House Divided" speech, where he was saying that the nation could not permanently remain half-slave and half-free. I'll leave the personal stuff for you and others, but here is clarification for at least that part.
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Post by minnesotapaintlady on Oct 5, 2024 20:08:42 GMT -5
I took the kids out to a Chicken Q for dinner and then to see Beetlejuice. Carrot gave me whatever illness he's been dealing with the past week, so when we got the popcorn/soda deal with two large drinks and a refillable large popcorn, him and I shared the same drink and let older son have his own so maybe he won't catch it. Let's see if that plan works.
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