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Post by Pink Cashmere on Jul 17, 2024 14:18:50 GMT -5
Yesterday my therapist put something on my mind because she said that I might be giving Mister too much grace by thinking the stuff with his parents is a big part of the reasons he is how he is right now regarding our relationship. I know he is still struggling, even though he doesn’t talk about it. Father’s Day was rough, it was his first without his Dad. His Mom’s birthday was yesterday. It still hasn’t even been a year since his Dad died. He said Monday and yesterday while driving, how his Dad would love his Mustang. Yesterday before we left, he was looking under the hood and took a picture and said “I wish I could send this to my Dad”. I didn’t have a relationship at all with my biological father when he died, so I haven’t experienced losing a parent I had a close relationship with. Never mind both within 7 months. And all the stress before and between their deaths to try to see about them and clean up their financial mess. That just seems like beyond a lot for anybody to go through, and he is the kind of person that tries to stuff emotions, which imo tends to make everything worse. Now when he was being mean, that was different and totally unacceptable to me. He’s not mean or negative anymore. Now we are kind of just here, living parallel lives in the same house. So I asked her how did what she said yesterday go along with what she was saying about a 5th grader and capacity in that joint session I told you all about. She said the capacity thing was a true deficiency, not a choice, and Mister is choosing to be the way he is in our relationship right now. So I was confused, because I’d taken it to mean that sometimes things can happen (like grief) that can temporarily lower a pers’s ability to function like normal in a relationship. I’m still confused lol. To me, saying a person is choosing to not function as well as normal when they are grieving, is similar to saying a person is choosing to not function well when they are depressed. I remember there were some unpleasant behaviors from your DH after his Mom passed, but I don’t remember what exactly he was doing to upset you or how long it lasted. Anyway, I am curious about what you kind souls think about what my therapist said yesterday. Am I giving him too much grace, thinking it’s because he is grieving? FWIW, some things have been slowly improving, but we still have a long way to go, and my thought process has been to not rush him or insist that he come on with it, RIGHT NOW. It's a fine line. DH treated me like shit was unacceptable and I in turn shouldn't treat him like shit. But the fact that my executive functioning was completely shot to hell was understandable and DH needed to step up and help carry the load. Same with now he's dealing with having lost both parents. I pick up stuff around the house without him having to ask so he can focus where he really needs to function like his job. Grieving did not entitle either one of us to use the other as a whipping post. Misplaced anger was understandable BUT we had every right to call each other out while doing it. Grieving does not mean you suddenly get a free pass to tromp all over someone's boundaries. It's been two years and antidepressants and I feel like I am just now getting my feet under me. I want to stress the antidepressants on my part because I was struggling BAD and starting to hurt my relationships and potentially lose my job. It was up to me to put on my big girl panties and seek out help. Which I did. DH admits that how he handled my mother dying was wrong. We had a very long discussion about it once I was in a better headspace. I extended some grace to him that this was a new situation for us neither one of us had any handbook on what to do though I am shocked how many people had to point out I was going to divorce him if he didn't shut up before he actually shut up. Some of this was also issues that have always been lurking there in our relationship, the death of our parents threw a spot light on them. Those issues aren't going away. They should have been addressed a LONG time ago but it was just easier to kick the can down the road. Until the day came when we finally reached the end and had no choice. I told DH that this is a cross roads in our marriage. We now have a choice on what direction we want to go in. The question is do we still intend and want to be on the same road together or has this highlighted it's time to part ways? We've stayed together though it has not been pretty. I will say this time around DH is dealing much better with his father's death than he did with his mother's. It is really overwhelming for him to have lost both parents BUT he is making an effort to not self destruct this time. Thank you so much for sharing. He did have a brief period where he was mean, and I made it very clear that that was unacceptable. So he dropped it down to being negative and irritable all the time. I made it clear that that was unacceptable too. So the vibe in the house is a lot better now. He is willing to have difficult conversations now, but they usually went sideways, which is why we finally started going to couples counseling. The closest person to me that I’ve lost was my Grandmother. Her death was unexpected because a week after she went to the Doctor for a checkup, she had a heart attack. But she also had dementia and was 85yo, which made it less shocking to happen suddenly, than if she had been younger. Like his parents who were 67yo. And as much as I loved my Grandmother and was so hurt when she died, that’s not the same as parents that you are very close to. So to me, it made sense that he would be “off” for a while, and not have much left to give, especially since he was already running on fumes by the time his Mom died and he had to keep going because that’s when his Dad became Mr. Messy, and then he died too. When I went through all of that stuff with my children, it was a very difficult time for me and after we got through it and I felt like my children would be okay, I fell apart. I kind of disappeared and became a shell of my former self, and it took a long time for me to be able to put myself back together. I was not interested in anything, I pulled away from my friends and my family. It took everything I had just to work and tend to my children. And thank God, I wasn’t even dealing with death and grieving. So me having gone through some things where I was not okay for some time after, is probably why I have handled him the way I have, with giving him grace. Anyway, my session yesterday put some things on my mind. I appreciate all of the feedback.
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Post by NastyWoman on Jul 17, 2024 14:19:42 GMT -5
This one looks like it doesn't need too much done to it. There's something to be said for that. I like the looks of this home but I am 100% certain someone made an error in the size of the living room since that area is about twice the size of the entire house.
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Post by soupandstew on Jul 17, 2024 14:23:36 GMT -5
I have looked at Nespresso and I've been dying for a true espresso maker but if I bit the bullet and the hard water killed it anyway I might cry. I tried one more time and it worked. I left it sit overnight with the descaling solution in the water reservoir. I'm guessing that softened up the blockage? I'm running the descale solution through it now. Our water is awful. I noticed last night my instant pot has a white ring around the lid from the water. My Nespresso has a cleaning cycle I run weekly - it just heats the water extra hot and circulates it throughout the machine before spitting it out. I run the descaling operation every 3 months based on our usage. I get the descaling solution from Nespresso when I order my coffee. Our water here is super hard and my current Nespresso is about 4 years old.
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Post by NastyWoman on Jul 17, 2024 14:28:27 GMT -5
Yea, the no pictures of the bedrooms is weird as is the fact that the yard pictures all seem quite old. Wouldn't there be summer pictures for a new listing? I wonder if this home has been on the market before and for some reason did not get a good enough offer leading to withdrawal
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Post by chiver78 on Jul 17, 2024 14:30:31 GMT -5
I'm debating having a pizza delivered for dinner. I can count on one hand how many times (since college, that doesn't count) I've had anything delivered. but the pizza place is a block from the beach and parking always sucks. it's worth the $1 delivery fee and whatever tip to not have to deal with that. I just got a good chuckle. today's the day the tree guys are coming to trim my oak trees for the guy next door. I had let both pups out to blow off some energy before getting closed inside for them to work in my backyard, but they were just kind of taking a last look at what all they wanted to cut before going to grab a late lunch. I asked how much they were going to be cutting, that I'd hoped it wasn't gonna be a clear cut at the fence line kind of thing, and the older guy was like nah, we wouldn't do that and we wouldn't take a job where that was ever agreed to. perfect, thank you! and I had the younger guy laughing when I quietly said I saw you turn and try not to laugh when I informed the homeowner that he could cut what he liked that was hanging over, but it wasn't my responsibility to pay for it. and oh, I'm not the genius that planted stuff under a tree and got mad that it wasn't getting sunlight. these guys seem cool lol... ETA - tree guys are back and actually cutting now. I let the pups out while they were unloading, and I went out back to say I was gonna let them run around for a little bit and then pull them back inside til I saw the truck leave. they were cool with that. I was getting DAGGERS from the homeowner that I was even out there in my own backyard, talking to the guys he was paying that I was allowing into my yard. it was fucking hilarious. I wish I could be a fly on the wall to hear him whine about how much more he wanted cut from the tree that isn't anywhere near his house. lol.... pups are inside now, so I'm staying out of it completely. but, I noticed the company name on the truck, and I'm probably gonna call them to cut out some ground cover stuff on the other side, after I check with that homeowner that it's okay by her. the whole left side of my backyard over near the generator is an overgrown jungle, between the sea grass and all the stuff that grows over the fence. I usually cut it back, but it all blew up with the rain right around when I busted my foot. but if I can clear cut it? that will buy me a few years at least, where I don't have to worry about it.
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Post by soupandstew on Jul 17, 2024 14:30:55 GMT -5
It looks like someone just moved it out of the way to access something in the ceiling. Realtor couldn't reach it before taking pictures? I'm more worried about the ceiling in the upstairs bedroom... I didn't even see that! I wonder how old the roof is. Hmm... Yeah, that's definitely water damage. Also there's some funky wires hanging in several areas of photo 14 - might be bootleg electrical. Overall, the carpet looks completely trashed - I don't think cleaning will do any good
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Post by minnesotapaintlady on Jul 17, 2024 14:33:35 GMT -5
You're not being nosy going to an open house, that's what they have them for! Well, maybe if you're looking at 2 million dollar houses when your budget is 200K, but otherwise...not nosy.
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Post by tallguy on Jul 17, 2024 14:40:22 GMT -5
I have made progress on filling in this trip to Ireland. I've got just about everything booked, a few more hotels, a car rental and a flight and I'll be done. Right now, all the reservations I have made have exceeded everything we did on the world cruise.....and we are only going to be gone a month! Of course, TD's been absolutely no help to me here. I ask his opinion and I get 'whatever you think is best'. Grrrrrr........GF and I just returned from a cruise/tour package. On the second or third night I went to the comedian's follow-up "late night" show. One of the cleaner parts referenced the differences between men and women. As an example, he asked something like, "Let me hear from any married men who did ANY of the planning for this cruise?" Out of the few hundred people at the show, there was complete silence. "Not a single one, huh? See!"
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Post by Pink Cashmere on Jul 17, 2024 14:40:25 GMT -5
Yes, he is acting differently than he did before his parents got sick and died. He keeps saying he is numb, and one time said do you really think I WANT to feel like this? But I also think it’s more comfortable to him to be numb than process his emotions, so it’s possible that he would prefer to just stay there (numb). But he also does often say on his own that he wants to get back to his “old self”, so I just don’t know what to think. Well I do think he needs to go back to individual counseling. He does go to couples counseling with me, so that’s better than nothing. But how long is "better than nothing" enough? As the say goes you can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink. You don't have to settle should Mister choose to not deal with his problems in a healthy manner. You can decide you don't want to go along for the ride. Most of Misters issues were there LONG before his parents died. Now he has an excuse to bury his head even further in the sand. Mister gets something out of being who he is. What it is IDK and he may not even know but whatever it is it is enough to not make the long term changes he needs to make to actually change things. Not everyone has the self awaerness or interest in doing the work needed to make actual long lasting change. You have every right to decide how much longer you want to wait for him. I meant “better than nothing” as far as him not doing any kind of counseling period. He hasn’t made an effort to go back to individual counseling, but we will go and engage in our joint session. Our joint sessions require us both to own our shit when we address issues but not as much as in individual sessions. That’s what I meant with “better than nothing”. I don’t have that perspective at all when it comes to our actual relationship. My therapist and I also discussed some of the things you wrote in the rest of your post. You’re good at this Drama! I will just say that I do have a timeframe in my head, for certain things.
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Post by toomuchreality on Jul 17, 2024 14:58:27 GMT -5
I loathe the whatever you think is best in regards to planning. Usually because months down the road when the trip occurs, he does have a opinion and it's contrary to what I've selected. I looked closer at the Keurig water reservoir and the bottom where the water exits is covered by a fine mesh. I'm guessing that was packed full last night and allowing the descaling solution to sit overnight broke it up. I couldn't tell last night because it's at the very bottom and my hand doesn't fit all the way down. I will definitely be descaling more often. I would have thought that $50 GE filter was doing something.... I only use distilled water in my clothing steamer, Keurig and iron. I still get build up. Probably not as much, or as often as if I just used filtered water. I would guess your filter is removing some stuff, otherwise you wouldn't need it, or need to change it. It just isn't removing as much as some other types of water.
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Post by andi9899 on Jul 17, 2024 15:02:59 GMT -5
You're not being nosy going to an open house, that's what they have them for! Well, maybe if you're looking at 2 million dollar houses when your budget is 200K, but otherwise...not nosy. Thanks for the justification. 🙂 It's a nice house and maybe it could be a contender. I wouldn't call it one without seeing the bedrooms though.
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Post by Pink Cashmere on Jul 17, 2024 15:03:33 GMT -5
Yesterday my therapist put something on my mind because she said that I might be giving Mister too much grace by thinking the stuff with his parents is a big part of the reasons he is how he is right now regarding our relationship.I know he is still struggling, even though he doesn’t talk about it. Father’s Day was rough, it was his first without his Dad. His Mom’s birthday was yesterday. It still hasn’t even been a year since his Dad died. He said Monday and yesterday while driving, how his Dad would love his Mustang. Yesterday before we left, he was looking under the hood and took a picture and said “I wish I could send this to my Dad”. I didn’t have a relationship at all with my biological father when he died, so I haven’t experienced losing a parent I had a close relationship with. Never mind both within 7 months. And all the stress before and between their deaths to try to see about them and clean up their financial mess. That just seems like beyond a lot for anybody to go through, and he is the kind of person that tries to stuff emotions, which imo tends to make everything worse. Now when he was being mean, that was different and totally unacceptable to me. He’s not mean or negative anymore. Now we are kind of just here, living parallel lives in the same house. So I asked her how did what she said yesterday go along with what she was saying about a 5th grader and capacity in that joint session I told you all about. She said the capacity thing was a true deficiency, not a choice, and Mister is choosing to be the way he is in our relationship right now. So I was confused, because I’d taken it to mean that sometimes things can happen (like grief) that can temporarily lower a pers’s ability to function like normal in a relationship. I’m still confused lol. To me, saying a person is choosing to not function as well as normal when they are grieving, is similar to saying a person is choosing to not function well when they are depressed. I remember there were some unpleasant behaviors from your DH after his Mom passed, but I don’t remember what exactly he was doing to upset you or how long it lasted. Anyway, I am curious about what you kind souls think about what my therapist said yesterday. Am I giving him too much grace, thinking it’s because he is grieving? FWIW, some things have been slowly improving, but we still have a long way to go, and my thought process has been to not rush him or insist that he come on with it, RIGHT NOW. I think your therapist is wrong. There is no time frame for grief, particularly if you lose one parent and then the other within the year. Losing your parents like that can't help but to impact as to how you see your own mortality. My best guess is that Mister has backed off in caring simply because he cannot handle another loss, so it's easier to push you away with his actions. I think he's doing it to protect himself. It seems counterintuitive, but if he doesn't care too much he won't get as hurt if you leave.....even though his actions are driving you away. Add to this that you have had medical issues that are not resolved, and I'd guess that somewhere he thinks you have a problem that doctors haven't found yet and he can add you to his list of losses. I'm not sure how you resolve this. He has to be willing to see that he's doing this, and he needs to be able to make the changes that he needs, but he's taking the path of least resistance right now because it's easier for him. FWIW, I still bawl like a baby when I hear certain music that my dad adored. It's been 9 years. I still get a heavy heart when I see one of my mom's favorite movies come up on the TV screen, and it's been 28 years. I have thought about all of that as a possibility too, except I didn’t think about the part regarding my medical issues. UGH! ETA: I do understand that there is no timeframe on grief. I still get sad at the beginning of December every year, because that’s when my Grandmother died, and it will be 12 years this year. I don’t think it ever goes away, people just eventually get to a point, where the pain is just not constant like it is at first.
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Post by wvugurl26 on Jul 17, 2024 15:08:47 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags.
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Post by tallguy on Jul 17, 2024 15:22:05 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags. GF thinks it's nice to travel with a porter too....
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Post by resolution on Jul 17, 2024 15:23:39 GMT -5
There is very little kitchen counter space on that one, and I keep reading what a great cook you are. The pic looks distorted to make the counter look longer, but in the next picture it looks smaller. I noticed that most of the links you have shared today are significantly smaller than the houses you looked at earlier, for not much of a price difference. Is this a different area that is more desirable? Although I lived quite happily in 1400 sf for many years, it was all on one level. I would have trouble buying a house that has 1000 sf above ground when there are similar houses with 1700+sf in the same price range.
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Post by busymom on Jul 17, 2024 15:37:03 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags. I drive. DH is navigator, and he also does most of the loading & unloading of the car. (And yes, I can read a map just fine, but I don't like to need to stop to check the map when I can ask DH to check on our next exit number.)
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Post by wvugurl26 on Jul 17, 2024 15:45:19 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags. GF thinks it's nice to travel with a porter too.... I flew by myself last month for work and was like where the heck is my help? It was the first time in a long time that I flew alone with a bag.
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Post by NomoreDramaQ1015 on Jul 17, 2024 15:46:32 GMT -5
Having a pity party.
My coworker got promoted from associate to chemist. Don't get me wrong he totally deserves it and it would have been really hard for them to argue he didn't.
But my fucking God I am jealous. Which is 100% a me problem I know that.
I can't believe how far I have fallen career/professional wise and how I got to be so bad at my performance. Micro labeled me unambitious and lazy because I didn't take a job whose duties were below what I already do, my manager and her manager have labeled me a negative Nancy who deliberately doesn't follow directions like she's told to.
WTF? I was being groomed to be a go into a PhD program someday. I was as close to a coordinator as I could get without having my master's. I am published on two papers because I rightly deserved it for the work I did. I was dabbling in statistics to become of more value. I was being handed protocols to start reviewing and editing so I could continue to grow.
How did I get here? Even at my last job Peacock couldn't deny my performance. Then as another coworker said the numbers speak for themselves when it came to when she was on vacation and I was in charge vs the opposite.
It's like the last 20 years evaporated and I am back to being a newbie all over again. Did I really get THAT bad since my mother died? Am I completely unable to assess my performance properly?
I really am trying to be self reflective and see what I did wrong to get me to this point. But I am struggling with it.
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Post by Opti on Jul 17, 2024 15:57:08 GMT -5
Having a pity party. My coworker got promoted from associate to chemist. Don't get me wrong he totally deserves it and it would have been really hard for them to argue he didn't. But my fucking God I am jealous. Which is 100% a me problem I know that. I can't believe how far I have fallen career/professional wise and how I got to be so bad at my performance. Micro labeled me unambitious and lazy because I didn't take a job whose duties were below what I already do, my manager and her manager have labeled me a negative Nancy who deliberately doesn't follow directions like she's told to. WTF? I was being groomed to be a go into a PhD program someday. I was as close to a coordinator as I could get without having my master's. I am published on two papers because I rightly deserved it for the work I did. I was dabbling in statistics to become of more value. I was being handed protocols to start reviewing and editing so I could continue to grow. How did I get here? Even at my last job Peacock couldn't deny my performance. Then as another coworker said the numbers speak for themselves when it came to when she was on vacation and I was in charge vs the opposite. It's like the last 20 years evaporated and I am back to being a newbie all over again. Did I really get THAT bad since my mother died? Am I completely unable to assess my performance properly? I really am trying to be self reflective and see what I did wrong to get me to this point. But I am struggling with it. I'll have a pity party with you shortly, but I need to make dinner first. IMO it may not be a 100% you problem. Men do get promoted more often than women. Fact. Men do not have to have as many skills as women need to even be considered promotable and this is because the male personality is considered superior to the female personality. (At least here in the US ) I've published no papers to my knowledge, but I was asked to go on to a PhD twice when I was working towards my master's degree. You are younger so hopefully you still have links to those papers and have them in hard copy. MO. Bad managers have always preyed on good competent people. If they think you are weak for any reason ... (for after dinner or much later) Sometimes it really isn't you, its the people around you. And it is teaching you lessons you wish you did not need to know. Like sometimes managers just target you because they want to. Das ist alles. Keep good documentation. Someday you might want to contact an employment lawyer.
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Post by bean29 on Jul 17, 2024 16:14:35 GMT -5
Let's Speculate: My Sister-in-law's latest post on Facebook:
" RNC" Was Good of what I Was'
She is not very educated. Her DH was a construction worker. Currently in Jail for his NTH Drunk Driving incident.
What do you think she means?
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Post by soupandstew on Jul 17, 2024 16:25:32 GMT -5
Let's Speculate: My Sister-in-law's latest post on Facebook: " RNC" Was Good of what I Was' She is not very educated. Her DH was a construction worker. Currently in Jail for his NTH Drunk Driving incident. What do you think she means? The Republican National Convention was good from what I saw
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Post by The Walk of the Penguin Mich on Jul 17, 2024 16:28:30 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags. TD just pays the credit card bills. I have abused the Costco card this morning. 7 hotel rooms, a rental car and flight from Dublin to Bordeaux. I should have jumped on the Bordeaux part faster because we were booked out of some of the less eye watering hotel room rates. I did book us a small apartment after we get off the river cruise which has a kitchen. It was cheaper than a hotel room, there is a grocery store not that far away and by then we will probably be sick of eating out. The one thing that I didn't account for is we get booted off the ship in the morning and we can't access the apartment until 4. I'm not sure what we can do in the 5 free hours where we will be hauling luggage - including wedding clothes - around. I'm hoping that since my sister is leaving Ireland right after the wedding, and we are hanging around for another month that she can bring those back with her.
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Post by The Walk of the Penguin Mich on Jul 17, 2024 16:32:52 GMT -5
Having a pity party. My coworker got promoted from associate to chemist. Don't get me wrong he totally deserves it and it would have been really hard for them to argue he didn't. But my fucking God I am jealous. Which is 100% a me problem I know that. I can't believe how far I have fallen career/professional wise and how I got to be so bad at my performance. Micro labeled me unambitious and lazy because I didn't take a job whose duties were below what I already do, my manager and her manager have labeled me a negative Nancy who deliberately doesn't follow directions like she's told to. WTF? I was being groomed to be a go into a PhD program someday. I was as close to a coordinator as I could get without having my master's. I am published on two papers because I rightly deserved it for the work I did. I was dabbling in statistics to become of more value. I was being handed protocols to start reviewing and editing so I could continue to grow. How did I get here? Even at my last job Peacock couldn't deny my performance. Then as another coworker said the numbers speak for themselves when it came to when she was on vacation and I was in charge vs the opposite. It's like the last 20 years evaporated and I am back to being a newbie all over again. Did I really get THAT bad since my mother died? Am I completely unable to assess my performance properly? I really am trying to be self reflective and see what I did wrong to get me to this point. But I am struggling with it. Didn't you start this job just about the time your mom died? If I had to hazard a guess, your response to her death had a large (and understandably so) impact on your performance and they just are not going to get past that. It is absolutely not fair that you are being judged like this, and it seems like no one is willing to take a look at what you've done since then - they are still stuck in the first few months you were on the job.
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Post by The Walk of the Penguin Mich on Jul 17, 2024 16:35:01 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags. I drive. DH is navigator, and he also does most of the loading & unloading of the car. (And yes, I can read a map just fine, but I don't like to need to stop to check the map when I can ask DH to check on our next exit number.) TD is going to be the driver. Ireland is going to be on the wrong side of the road with a manual shift with the left hand. He's done that before, I have not. I'm also much better at reading maps than he is.
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Post by NomoreDramaQ1015 on Jul 17, 2024 16:57:45 GMT -5
I started a week after MIL died. Right after that all the shit with my grandma started.
Then my mom. I was only 3 months into this job.
I told DH I started a new job at the worst time ever and it would likely haunt me forever.
It's like anything else in corporate America you lie and shove that shit deep down you are not human you are a robot.
I do think at any of my other jobs it would have been acknowledged I was struggling but it was an exception and they would have been more inclined to help than watch me drown and penalize me and anyone else who extended me a hand.
I got told I should have had the job mastered in three months and nobody should have to be helping me I had to prove I could do it alone.
Meanwhile it's been over a year and Captain Dipshit gets people assigned to help him anytime he falls behind. He is the only one in the lab that they do that for the rest of us are expected to get it all done within the 5 day turn around no matter how big or workload is.
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Post by soupandstew on Jul 17, 2024 17:41:27 GMT -5
We did a little trip with our 50+ club to a local museum dedicated to the early days of passenger air travel with airlines like Braniff, PanAm, TTA and others long gone into the history books. The museum is housed in the 1940 terminal of Houston's first airport and has really cool collectibles including sets of china and silverware folks ate off when flying, complimentary shaving kits, playing cards, and cigarettes. I saw a job performance report for a "stewardess" in which it was noted her appearance suffered because she needed to use foundation better matching her skin tone and groom her eyebrows more frequently. We've come a long way indeed.
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Post by andi9899 on Jul 17, 2024 18:03:10 GMT -5
Let's Speculate: My Sister-in-law's latest post on Facebook: " RNC" Was Good of what I Was' She is not very educated. Her DH was a construction worker. Currently in Jail for his NTH Drunk Driving incident. What do you think she means? I don't know, but it makes my head hurt.
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Post by jerseygirl on Jul 17, 2024 18:05:44 GMT -5
Let's Speculate: My Sister-in-law's latest post on Facebook: " RNC" Was Good of what I Was' She is not very educated. Her DH was a construction worker. Currently in Jail for his NTH Drunk Driving incident. What do you think she means? I don't know, but it makes my head hurt. Dyslexic? Was instead of saw?
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Post by TheOtherMe on Jul 17, 2024 18:08:31 GMT -5
You're not being nosy going to an open house, that's what they have them for! Well, maybe if you're looking at 2 million dollar houses when your budget is 200K, but otherwise...not nosy. Thanks for the justification. 🙂 It's a nice house and maybe it could be a contender. I wouldn't call it one without seeing the bedrooms though. What is the red sign in the window?
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Post by The Walk of the Penguin Mich on Jul 17, 2024 18:16:14 GMT -5
DH claims his jobs regarding travel are to show up, drive and carry the bags. GF thinks it's nice to travel with a porter too.... I have been informed I cannot pack any more than I can carry. So I don’t have a porter.
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