what are you doing right now?

[saveinla]

Dec 5, 2023 10:08:27 GMT -5 lurkyloo said:

But, got the necessary documents uploaded for the iep lawyer and the kids had a good time last night. This is going to be trickier than I’d hoped, the whole kid who loves to host coupled with his introverted mom, necessity of supervising his easily overexcited self, and constant insecurity and embarrassment bc I suck at organizing the house and am unenthusiastic about cleaning.

Get yourself a cleaner - its life changing

[soupandstew]

I had no dental care during my childhood and teen years as we were desperately poor (could not afford toothpaste), so I spent as much of my early salary starting at 18 having work done.  It took several years as the bulk of my salary went to support my mother and myself.  Later in our working days we had dental insurance but the benefits were minimal (something like $500 max a year) so we paid OOP for everything.  DH had a real problem with gum disease and endured multiple surgeries which are an expensive form of torture, about $5000 per quadrant.  We have cleanings every six months and experience few problems.  They found a small cavity under a 40-year old filling last year so I had the filling replaced; DH had a very old crown replaced.  Our cleanings run about $200 with annual x-rays another $100-$150.  Well worth it to skip the misery of additional work.  

[chiver78]

I took the most pitiful pic of Punk an hour or so ago, she climbed up into "LD's chair" to look out the window. she's currently curled up in said barrel chair, and snoring. I've been on the phone almost literally all day the past 2d, save for the 2h I spent today just aimlessly driving around with them both hanging out the windows. I just sent back the last thing that had to be signed today, and once I put the OOO message up, I'm closing this laptop til Thursday morning. I won't say that my GAF is completely busted, b/c I do actually care about product quality etc, but my sense of urgency for anything has left the building. I'll absolutely still work in Good Quality Practices, but I'm working at my own pace, which doesn't account for anyone else's mistakes becoming a 'crisis' for me. 

have a great night, kids! I may check in on my phone later. 

[soupandstew]

We got the rest of the Christmas stuff from storage and scattered around, except for the tree which DH will place tomorrow morning while I work on my author's college years.  

I also have to compose an email reply to run by the incoming president before sending.  It needs to be responsive, not reactive, and narrowly structured to call out a person's deflection from the core issue - her appallingly unprofessional and hate-filled social media posts attacking the organization to whose board she was elected and with whose directors she will serve next year.  This will be a true test of my maturity and strategic skills. 

[Pink Cashmere]

Dec 5, 2023 16:25:47 GMT -5 soupandstew said:

I had no dental care during my childhood and teen years as we were desperately poor (could not afford toothpaste), so I spent as much of my early salary starting at 18 having work done.  It took several years as the bulk of my salary went to support my mother and myself.  Later in our working days we had dental insurance but the benefits were minimal (something like $500 max a year) so we paid OOP for everything.  DH had a real problem with gum disease and endured multiple surgeries which are an expensive form of torture, about $5000 per quadrant.  We have cleanings every six months and experience few problems.  They found a small cavity under a 40-year old filling last year so I had the filling replaced; DH had a very old crown replaced.  Our cleanings run about $200 with annual x-rays another $100-$150.  Well worth it to skip the misery of additional work.  

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

[soupandstew]

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:25:47 GMT -5 soupandstew said:

I had no dental care during my childhood and teen years as we were desperately poor (could not afford toothpaste), so I spent as much of my early salary starting at 18 having work done.  It took several years as the bulk of my salary went to support my mother and myself.  Later in our working days we had dental insurance but the benefits were minimal (something like $500 max a year) so we paid OOP for everything.  DH had a real problem with gum disease and endured multiple surgeries which are an expensive form of torture, about $5000 per quadrant.  We have cleanings every six months and experience few problems.  They found a small cavity under a 40-year old filling last year so I had the filling replaced; DH had a very old crown replaced.  Our cleanings run about $200 with annual x-rays another $100-$150.  Well worth it to skip the misery of additional work.  

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

Yes!  It's ironic that, with the huge body of evidence for the connection between oral and general health, we still ignore that.  And "we the people" aren't saving $$ - the guy whose heart valve is damaged by bacteria from his mouth has higher Medicare/Medicaid costs than a healthy person.  Ditto the senior without teeth whose poor-quality gummable diet doesn't meet their nutritional needs.

[minnesotapaintlady]

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:25:47 GMT -5 soupandstew said:

I had no dental care during my childhood and teen years as we were desperately poor (could not afford toothpaste), so I spent as much of my early salary starting at 18 having work done.  It took several years as the bulk of my salary went to support my mother and myself.  Later in our working days we had dental insurance but the benefits were minimal (something like $500 max a year) so we paid OOP for everything.  DH had a real problem with gum disease and endured multiple surgeries which are an expensive form of torture, about $5000 per quadrant.  We have cleanings every six months and experience few problems.  They found a small cavity under a 40-year old filling last year so I had the filling replaced; DH had a very old crown replaced.  Our cleanings run about $200 with annual x-rays another $100-$150.  Well worth it to skip the misery of additional work.  

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

There are a lot of people with serious dentist phobia though.  I had it bad (along with needle phobia, doctor phobia, blood phobia...) when I was younger and didn't go at all in my 20's after my mom quit taking me.  The birth of my first kid in my early 30's changed a lot with me in that regard.  After being poked and prodded for months during pregnancy and doing the whole childbirth thing I was a lot braver.  LOL

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Dec 5, 2023 16:48:53 GMT -5 minnesotapaintlady said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

There are a lot of people with serious dentist phobia though.  I had it bad (along with needle phobia, doctor phobia, blood phobia...) when I was younger and didn't go at all in my 20's after my mom quit taking me.  The birth of my first kid in my early 30's changed a lot with me in that regard.  After being poked and prodded for months during pregnancy and doing the whole childbirth thing I was a lot braver.  LOL

My mom had incredibly bad dental phobia.  1950s dentistry was brutal, like a few steps up from the local barber yanking your teeth.  She remembers a dentist drilling into her teeth without any gas or anything. The dental assistant held her down so she wouldn't squirm. 

My previous dental tech said it is quite common in people my mom's age, DH's age and even my age.

Dentistry has come a long long way from when a lot of us were kids.  I am so freaking jealous of where my kids' go for their pediatric dentist.  After DH took them to an appointment for the first time he commented he never would have developed his fear if dentistry had been like that in the 70s.

[raeoflyte]

Dec 5, 2023 10:46:25 GMT -5 azucena said:

Pink is coming to StL!!!!

My musical and concert budget is out of control. But YOLO, right?

She's so worth it!

[Opti]

Dec 5, 2023 17:04:06 GMT -5 raeoflyte said:

Dec 5, 2023 10:46:25 GMT -5 azucena said:

Pink is coming to StL!!!!

My musical and concert budget is out of control. But YOLO, right?

She's so worth it!

Wow. Sounds awesome. I love some of her anthem songs. 

[minnesotapaintlady]

Dec 5, 2023 16:59:45 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:48:53 GMT -5 minnesotapaintlady said:

There are a lot of people with serious dentist phobia though.  I had it bad (along with needle phobia, doctor phobia, blood phobia...) when I was younger and didn't go at all in my 20's after my mom quit taking me.  The birth of my first kid in my early 30's changed a lot with me in that regard.  After being poked and prodded for months during pregnancy and doing the whole childbirth thing I was a lot braver.  LOL

My mom had incredibly bad dental phobia.  1950s dentistry was brutal, like a few steps up from the local barber yanking your teeth.  She remembers a dentist drilling into her teeth without any gas or anything. The dental assistant held her down so she wouldn't squirm. 

My previous dental tech said it is quite common in people my mom's age, DH's age and even my age.

Dentistry has come a long long way from when a lot of us were kids.  I am so freaking jealous of where my kids' go for their pediatric dentist.  After DH took them to an appointment for the first time he commented he never would have developed his fear if dentistry had been like that in the 70s.

Yeah, I went to an OLD, OLD dentist back in the 70's in a small town office that looked like a house of horrors.  I still remember some of my visits there and I never even had any cavities until I was 17 or 18.  Then a new dentist took over the practice and suddenly I had 6.   That's about the time I quit going and I never had another cavity since.  I really think that one guy was just trying to pay off his student loans.

[Pink Cashmere]

Dec 5, 2023 16:48:53 GMT -5 minnesotapaintlady said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

There are a lot of people with serious dentist phobia though.  I had it bad (along with needle phobia, doctor phobia, blood phobia...) when I was younger and didn't go at all in my 20's after my mom quit taking me.  The birth of my first kid in my early 30's changed a lot with me in that regard.  After being poked and prodded for months during pregnancy and doing the whole childbirth thing I was a lot braver.  LOL

I don’t do well with the dentist myself, going to the dentist is even worse than going to the doctor for me. My heart races at the dentist too lol. So I do understand how that can be a problem too. Especially if I started losing teeth and had the means to afford the dentist, I would go. But that’s just me, of course. 

[Pink Cashmere]

Dec 5, 2023 17:09:43 GMT -5 Opti said:

Dec 5, 2023 17:04:06 GMT -5 raeoflyte said:

She's so worth it!

Wow. Sounds awesome. I love some of her anthem songs. 

Well damn, I thought she meant me lol. 

I told y’all I’m kinda crazy these days. LOL!

[Opti]

Dec 5, 2023 16:59:45 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:48:53 GMT -5 minnesotapaintlady said:

There are a lot of people with serious dentist phobia though.  I had it bad (along with needle phobia, doctor phobia, blood phobia...) when I was younger and didn't go at all in my 20's after my mom quit taking me.  The birth of my first kid in my early 30's changed a lot with me in that regard.  After being poked and prodded for months during pregnancy and doing the whole childbirth thing I was a lot braver.  LOL

My mom had incredibly bad dental phobia.  1950s dentistry was brutal, like a few steps up from the local barber yanking your teeth.  She remembers a dentist drilling into her teeth without any gas or anything. The dental assistant held her down so she wouldn't squirm. 

My previous dental tech said it is quite common in people my mom's age, DH's age and even my age.

Dentistry has come a long long way from when a lot of us were kids.  I am so freaking jealous of where my kids' go for their pediatric dentist.  After DH took them to an appointment for the first time he commented he never would have developed his fear if dentistry had been like that in the 70s.

I am glad I did not know about this prior to now. That said, way too often the family dentist would start drilling saying well maybe we don't need anything its not that far down. When it got too bad I did get anesthesia by needle long painful needles that took forever to work on me. Family dentist did not like that either ad frankly neither did I.

Sorry your mom endured that. My dad since he had silly thoughts also encouraged me and others in the family to do without. Sometimes I think he welcomed suffereing to prove he could take it. Shakes head ... and tries to remember what the hack I was supposed to make dinner with. Ground pork and

[Opti]

I found it! I bought mung bean sprouts from the Spanish market when I bought emergency soda for my stomach/nerves. 

[Pink Cashmere]

I told Mister this morning that I’m not cooking today and asked him to get some wings from this place we both like, that’s near his job. As good as their wings are, it’s too far to drive all the way over there from home.

So he is on his way home with the wings and I think I will take a shower and lay in bed soon and watch tv. I very rarely do that, I don’t even watch much tv, but today seems like a good day for it. 

[soupandstew]

Dentistry has definitely come a long way in my lifetime.  DH loves his current dentist who is dedicated to a totally painless experience and uses numbing gel on him for his cleaning.  My dentist wanted to use a dab on me and that was the nastiest tasting stuff I ever had in my mouth so I said no more, not never. 

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:25:47 GMT -5 soupandstew said:

I had no dental care during my childhood and teen years as we were desperately poor (could not afford toothpaste), so I spent as much of my early salary starting at 18 having work done.  It took several years as the bulk of my salary went to support my mother and myself.  Later in our working days we had dental insurance but the benefits were minimal (something like $500 max a year) so we paid OOP for everything.  DH had a real problem with gum disease and endured multiple surgeries which are an expensive form of torture, about $5000 per quadrant.  We have cleanings every six months and experience few problems.  They found a small cavity under a 40-year old filling last year so I had the filling replaced; DH had a very old crown replaced.  Our cleanings run about $200 with annual x-rays another $100-$150.  Well worth it to skip the misery of additional work.  

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

It’s a lot more than this, Pink.  When I was working on my practicum, part of it was going out in the dental van.  The dental van is actually an RV that has an entire dental office in it.  It was scheduled to go to the local elementary schools in the county, a week (or longer) at each school.  The dental van was staffed with fully accredited dentists and hygienists.  Since I am neither, my job was essentially intaking and paperwork.  

At the beginning of the school year, we sent a form around.  This form had to be signed before our dentists could touch a child.  All treatment was free.  The van (at the time) was wholly supported by McDonald’s.  The dentists and hygienists were supplied by the university.  We got a lot of supplies from P&G and Colgate.  

We got back roughly 10% of those release forms signed.  There was very detailed information as to who was sponsoring the project, paying for it and supplying it.  10%.

The prevailing attitude is ‘I lost my teeth as a child, why should my child get help?’.  We taught kids how to brush and floss.  They were supplied with enough that they were covered until our next visit.  One of the manufacturers supplied these really cute spin brushes with cartoon characters.  One little kid told me his mom took it away and sold it.  It really was heartbreakingly sad to see.  He told us just to give him another regular toothbrush and maybe his mom wouldn’t take this one.  

There is not a lot of information to break that kind of attitude.  However, there ARE systems out there…..we were just one of many.  You just hav3 to keep trying, regardless of how discouraging it gets.

[giramomma]

DH didn't get the job.

Boo.

I'm off to push some more levers.

[soupandstew]

Dec 5, 2023 17:44:00 GMT -5 The Walk of the Penguin Mich said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

It’s a lot more than this, Pink.  When I was working on my practicum, part of it was going out in the dental van.  The dental van is actually an RV that has an entire dental office in it.  It was scheduled to go to the local elementary schools in the county, a week (or longer) at each school.  The dental van was staffed with fully accredited dentists and hygienists.  Since I am neither, my job was essentially intaking and paperwork.  

At the beginning of the school year, we sent a form around.  This form had to be signed before our dentists could touch a child.  All treatment was free.  The van (at the time) was wholly supported by McDonald’s.  The dentists and hygienists were supplied by the university.  We got a lot of supplies from P&G and Colgate.  

We got back roughly 10% of those release forms signed.  There was very detailed information as to who was sponsoring the project, paying for it and supplying it.  10%.

The prevailing attitude is ‘I lost my teeth as a child, why should my child get help?’.  We taught kids how to brush and floss.  They were supplied with enough that they were covered until our next visit.  One of the manufacturers supplied these really cute spin brushes with cartoon characters.  One little kid told me his mom took it away and sold it.  It really was heartbreakingly sad to see.  He told us just to give him another regular toothbrush and maybe his mom wouldn’t take this one.  

There is not a lot of information to break that kind of attitude.  However, there ARE systems out there…..we were just one of many.  You just hav3 to keep trying, regardless of how discouraging it gets.

  A local assistance ministry has periodic visits by the "Tooth Bus", a large RV like you describe.  It's well publicized in multiple languages to the target communities, but attendance is sometimes minimal because the parents are #1 More scared than the kids because of their own painful experiences and #2 The feeling that their kids don't need better than they had, also as you describe.  My heart breaks each time.  Our dentists always insist on loading us up with floss, toothpaste and toothbrushes at every visit which we in turn donate to people putting together toiletries for the homeless.  

[TheOtherMe]

I have bad memories from going to the dentist in the 50's and all I was getting were cleanings.  Cavities didn't start until I was older.

I remember having our teeth checked by the school nurse, like they did the vision test.  I have no idea what actually came out of any of those checks.

[susana1954]

I was thinking about dental insurance the other day.  I just about break even on cleaning and x-rays and do a little better if--God forbid--I need a crown or something.  I don't have great teeth, but they are still here at age 70.  I have lost two back molars--both had crowns and root canals.  But one was cracked underneath the crown, and the other one shifted to expose the nerve when it no longer had anything to hit.  My sister had to get full dentures in her 50s because we had such poor dental care in our childhood.  I think I was 9 or 10 when I first saw a dentist.

Anyway, I could drop the dental insurance and pay about the same out-of-pocket, but I don't for the simple reason that if I pay for it, I will go.  So while I hate going to the dentist, even for cleanings, I go because I paid for it.  That's just my mentality.

That was how I lost the 70 pounds, too.  I had paid for six months of WW so I had to do it.  Then I paid for another six months and so on.  So far so good . . . I have kept it off for about a year.

It is ok to laugh.

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

Dec 5, 2023 18:54:35 GMT -5 susana1954 said:

I was thinking about dental insurance the other day.  I just about break even on cleaning and x-rays and do a little better if--God forbid--I need a crown or something.  I don't have great teeth, but they are still here at age 70.  I have lost two back molars--both had crowns and root canals.  But one was cracked underneath the crown, and the other one shifted to expose the nerve when it no longer had anything to hit.  My sister had to get full dentures in her 50s because we had such poor dental care in our childhood.  I think I was 9 or 10 when I first saw a dentist.

Anyway, I could drop the dental insurance and pay about the same out-of-pocket, but I don't for the simple reason that if I pay for it, I will go.  So while I hate going to the dentist, even for cleanings, I go because I paid for it.  That's just my mentality.

That was how I lost the 70 pounds, too.  I had paid for six months of WW so I had to do it.  Then I paid for another six months and so on.  So far so good . . . I have kept it off for about a year.

It is ok to laugh.

Not laughing.  I had an expensive gym membership that cost me 5% of my take home salary at one time.  Writing that check each month was painful enough to ensure I’d use it.  I did.

[Opti]

Dec 5, 2023 18:00:24 GMT -5 soupandstew said:

Dec 5, 2023 17:44:00 GMT -5 The Walk of the Penguin Mich said:

It’s a lot more than this, Pink.  When I was working on my practicum, part of it was going out in the dental van.  The dental van is actually an RV that has an entire dental office in it.  It was scheduled to go to the local elementary schools in the county, a week (or longer) at each school.  The dental van was staffed with fully accredited dentists and hygienists.  Since I am neither, my job was essentially intaking and paperwork.  

At the beginning of the school year, we sent a form around.  This form had to be signed before our dentists could touch a child.  All treatment was free.  The van (at the time) was wholly supported by McDonald’s.  The dentists and hygienists were supplied by the university.  We got a lot of supplies from P&G and Colgate.  

We got back roughly 10% of those release forms signed.  There was very detailed information as to who was sponsoring the project, paying for it and supplying it.  10%.

The prevailing attitude is ‘I lost my teeth as a child, why should my child get help?’.  We taught kids how to brush and floss.  They were supplied with enough that they were covered until our next visit.  One of the manufacturers supplied these really cute spin brushes with cartoon characters.  One little kid told me his mom took it away and sold it.  It really was heartbreakingly sad to see.  He told us just to give him another regular toothbrush and maybe his mom wouldn’t take this one.  

There is not a lot of information to break that kind of attitude.  However, there ARE systems out there…..we were just one of many.  You just hav3 to keep trying, regardless of how discouraging it gets.

  A local assistance ministry has periodic visits by the "Tooth Bus", a large RV like you describe.  It's well publicized in multiple languages to the target communities, but attendance is sometimes minimal because the parents are #1 More scared than the kids because of their own painful experiences and #2 The feeling that their kids don't need better than they had, also as you describe.  My heart breaks each time.  Our dentists always insist on loading us up with floss, toothpaste and toothbrushes at every visit which we in turn donate to people putting together toiletries for the homeless.  

I used to donate most of my dentist cleaning gimmees to my local church or some food pantries. That can also be used for churches who host the homeless for a weekend. Gives them something new and safe to clean their teeth and mouth with.
I am using my dentist cleaning care package. Although I could really use some help getting that little piece of foil off that's covering my small tube of Crest toothpaste.

[busymom]

Dec 5, 2023 16:48:53 GMT -5 minnesotapaintlady said:

Dec 5, 2023 16:36:26 GMT -5 Pink Cashmere said:

I do understand that dental care is not high on the list of priorities for people that are struggling just to eat and have a roof over their head, or just barely making it, or whatever other situation where they just don’t have the money to pays for it. I don’t think it should be that way in this “civilized” country of ours, because dental health is important too, and can affect your physical health, as several posters here have pointed out before.

There are a lot of people with serious dentist phobia though.  I had it bad (along with needle phobia, doctor phobia, blood phobia...) when I was younger and didn't go at all in my 20's after my mom quit taking me.  The birth of my first kid in my early 30's changed a lot with me in that regard.  After being poked and prodded for months during pregnancy and doing the whole childbirth thing I was a lot braver.  LOL

     I still hate going to the dentist.  Yes, my blood pressure shoots up when I'm there.  Probably because my parents had a very tight budget when I was a kid, so I never got any painkiller when I had a cavity.  I still remember those hot drills they used back then.  Now things are SO much better.  I just had another crown started, and after they used their numbing stuff I didn't feel a thing.  The only reason I've kept going to the dentist all these years is because I know how serious the consequences are of a bad dental infection.  It can literally kill you.  

[countrygirl2]

Everything is mopped and I have dusted all but DD's room and the kitty room. May do some in DD's room to neaten before we go. I'm going to have to clean thoroughly when I get back including ceiling fans and windows. But it will be ok when we leave.

Ok DD's nails now, moving along.

[Opti]

Dec 5, 2023 17:47:39 GMT -5 giramomma said:

DH didn't get the job.

Boo.

I'm off to push some more levers.

Sorry. 

[giramomma]

Well. St nick's stockings are filled.

Elfie is swinging from a candy cane. And left some for the kids to eat.

It has been a good day. In spite of things.

[finnime]

Good morning, dutiful invisipeeps, tending your teeth and your lives. I hope your Wednesday is fun, easy and fulfilling, with fresh fruit available for snacking.

I did get regular dental care as a child, including Novacain for drilling. I still have bad memories of the smell of bone and the pain of getting the shot in the gum. But I am grateful; I have all my teeth in fairly good shape still. My DM brought the 5 of us, taking us out of school for the appointments.

I can relate, susana1954, to your determination to get your money's worth. I quit smoking entirely a bit more than 31 years ago. Then the patch was a prescription only item and it cost $hundreds for a two month's supply. Once I got the scrip I wasn't about to waste the money. At the end I cut the patches down for a lower dose.

I've hired DD to work on my website, culling less-great photos and rearranging into a more coherent sort. She started yesterday and should finish today. I keep taking new pictures and some of them are better than what I'd had on the site.

Also yesterday we finished watching the mini series The Railway Men, about the Union Carbide factory leak in Bhopal, India and the aftermath. Great show. We have dinner with DD about once a week and watch tv. It was taco Tuesday.

The dawn yesterday was hidden behind rain clouds but the sun shone around the cloud edges. I took this shot while it was raining on me:

[Opti]

Up because sinuses. Up because of mistreatment and railroading by my boss and the head of HR.
Did sleep at least 4 hours by using the right amount of sleep helper. Will try to sleep a little longer, usually get up in about an hour.
But my anxiety is through the roof as its deja vu. Its almost exactly like last year, hence me feeling a ground hog week/month vibe. Ye ground hog rerun is ot just work, it runs through my almost financee and I don't know when it stops. When I return to work? When I survive at least the first full week back? IDK. Feel like I am in the work rat race and I did not come here to be treated like a slightly better paid dollar general worker.




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