Positive vibes requested

[Ava]

I am very scared.

When I visited the country I'm originally from last December I went to the gynecologist and a primary physician for a check up.

My results weren't ready when I came back. My mom picked them up last Friday.

My gynecological tests were all right.

My mom took my blood and urine test to the primary doctor. It looks like I have a major disease.

Saturday I went to a clinic to have a second test in order to confirm the results and start treatment here.

They asked me to fasten and come back Sunday morning. We had another snow storm Saturday to Sunday. I was so worried about this situation that I didn't even call to see if they were open. I jumped on my car and went there. I lost control of my car a couple of times, but made it without any accidents. Of course the clinic was closed. It's a 365 days clinic, but with the snow storm they were closed. I came back home crying.

I went back this morning and they did the test. They'll have the results in 3 to 5 days. They'll call me then so I can pick them up and know if I have to take any medication or where I go from there.

There are things I could have done to avoid this, but I didn't. Also, it's very difficult to keep on top of things when you are alone, with no support network. That's why I cannot wait till the MBA is done and I can finally get out of this place. I have no family here, very few friends with their own lives, and I cannot deal with all this on my own.

Right now I can only hope it's just a scare. Maybe I still have time to avoid this disease. It doesn't look like it, if this test confirms my prior result.

The only reason I have a little hope is because a few years ago I tested positive for a thyroid condition and then three consecutive tests over the years have proved I don't have it.

I am so scared that I would do anything to avoid this. I hope it's just a pre condition that can be reversed.

Please keep me in your thoughts. I will update once I get the test back.

Thanks,

Ava

[Artemis Windsong]

We are here.  You are not alone.  Even though all we are are words typed on the page we do send you the best.  I am so sorry this is happening to you. 

I have experienced the being alone, sent home with bad news walk myself.  The medical people seem to do this on a Friday so a person can stew all weekend.  Or on a holiday.

What I did was make sure I ate some healthy food.  I watched uplifting shows and did not watch the news or read anything in the newspaper.  I went to bed on time and got up on time.  I checked on the internet for alternative medical solutions. 

Other times I went to the mall to walk just to be around people.  I keep a journal each day that includes my difficult walks in life.  I get it out and down on paper.

Look for funny and cute.  This is a funny post.

ymam.proboards.com/thread/43804/fell-off-horse-died-morning

Mr. Fluffy Butt about chickens is also a cute thread.

Best wishes.  All of us will have more advice than you will know what to do with.  for you.

[Tennesseer]

Hang in there, Ava.  Even if the news is not what you hope for, you can handle whatever it is.  You are strong.

[billisonboard]

[Jaguar]

Sending you healing thoughts, <<< BIG HUGS >>>

[Deleted]

Positive vibes coming your way !

[flutterby]

Sending positive thoughts, ava!

[tractor]

Ava,

While we are just a bunch of posters on a random message board, you are not alone, feel free to reach out whenever you need to. The nice thing is we are available 24/7. I will pray that you have the strength to make it through whatever you are dealing with.

[gacpa]

We care, Ava.  Hang in there, and don't scare yourself.  We are rooting for you.  Stay as calm as you can, in order to better handle whatever comes to pass in the days ahead.

[sesfw]

((((((((( ava ))))))))))))) you have a whole room full of people pulling for you. Even though it's on the web ......... we are here for you.

[Ava]

Feb 16, 2015 19:25:30 GMT -5 sesfw said:

((((((((( ava ))))))))))))) you have a whole room full of people pulling for you. Even though it's on the web ......... we are here for you.

I know, and I am happy I have this place to come to. Sometimes you cannot tell anyone in real life what's going on.

I am trying to visualize myself coming back here with good news in a few days. Even if it means changing certain things, taking medicine or whatever I have to do. I just hope it's not full blown. I can deal with a pre condition.

Thanks for being here for me. I know when I pick up my results in a few days, I'll be thinking on the support I'm getting here.

[mmhmm]

Aww, Ava, I'm sorry, hon. This kind of news is always super scary and the wait for results just makes things worse. We're here, as others have said, and we care about you. Try, if you can, to occupy your mind with other things - even if it's just coming here and chatting - until you have the results of your tests. Once you've got those, we'll be better able to help you formulate a plan (if you need one) or celebrate the fact that you don't need a plan!  Hugs, Ava. Hang in there, girl.

[Peace77]

Hugs.   You have our support.

[flamingo]

Sending lots of positive vibes your way. Best wishes!

[taz157]

Feb 16, 2015 17:20:04 GMT -5 Tennesseer said:

Hang in there, Ava.  Even if the news is not what you hope for, you can handle whatever it is.  You are strong.

[msventoux]

Sorry Ava.  Best wishes for good news soon! 

[toomuchreality]

The unknown is so much harder to deal with, because you don't know which way things are going to go, to make a plan. Either way, I wish you the best of luck and am sending you all my best!

(((( BIG hugs, Ava )))) Hang in there!

[finnime]

Strength and hope soaring towards you, Ava.

[Ava]

Thanks guys.

I am receiving the good vibes all right.

I am heading to work now and that will be distracting.

I just had an idea that may help my workplace. I don't know if management will like it, but I'll tell them anyway.

Funny how the mind works, I am worried about the test results and at the same time an idea to improve my workplace pops into my head. I think it's a good idea. My workplace is moving one hour away and, understandably, all my co workers are upset. So my idea is why not allow people to work 4-10 instead of 5-8. Saves times, saves gas. There are enough workers that this can be covered by flexing some of them on Monday and some on Friday. It would boost worker's moral at a time when we all feel the company has somehow let us down. It's not for me because I plan to leave before the move, but I think it would be  great for the others and for the company too. It only needs a little planning and some good will.

It makes me feel better that I'm capable to come up with something.

And about the test results; I'm confident that when they call me with whatever results I'll be able to accept it and handle it. I still cry at times, though, but I have to face reality.

[Deleted]

Ugh...waiting just sucks.  Throw yourself into something else (sounds like work is a good one).  

[NancysSummerSip]

Ava, I am sorry you are hearing this news, on top of everything else you are going through and anticipating.

If you have enough information about the disease you are facing, then make plans to work with it and live through it. I get the fear factor of it all. I have two life-altering conditions myself: one that can be treated but not cured, and one that can be treated and cured but the treatment will be ongoing for awhile. I do think about both conditions, but I live alongside them. Neither one is in charge.

Get the facts. Go to good and trusted websites (ask your medical professionals if you don't know where to Google), or ask them for the information. Know what you are facing, and get yourself armed to face the enemy, so to speak. You cannot fight a good fight to live a good, long life without being well-equipped for it.

If the condition you have has a local or on-line support group, get involved. Know that you are not alone, that others are out there with you and can offer help getting through this.

Keep notes or a diary of how you think and feel and what you are going through. Can be anything from a few words each day to a long, angry diatribe. And it's OK to be mad, scared, confused, pissed...whatever. This has upended your life. All your best-laid plans have gone berserk for the moment. Get it out of your system when you need to.

[Deleted]

Good luck Ava. Hope it all comes out good.

 If not , remember what a tough cookie you are, you will be ok.

[Deleted]

I go here when I'm having a crappy day at work...

cuteoverload.com/

[Deleted]

I spent most of 2013 feeling awful more often than I felt good. None of the doctors I went to could tell me what was wrong with me. The dreaded unknown. I hate it. I would be happy when tests would finally come back and show I didn't have this or that problem, but that still left me wondering "well what the hell IS wrong then". Ugh!

We can't reach out and give you real hugs of support, but we're still here as best we can be. We're sending you virtual hugs  and positive vibes. Take care!

[Deleted]

Sending good thoughts to you Ava. 

[Knee Deep in Water Chloe]

[Formerly SK]

Wanted to chime in that yes we are all here for you.  You have incredible strength, and I have no doubt you will be able to deal with whatever comes your way. 

[skubikky]

Ava
I'm thinking of you.
No matter what the results, I feel confident that you'll be ok.

We're all here pulling for you and wishing you the best.

[resolution]

Ava, I hope the results come back well for you. But I know no matter what happens you are strong enough to work through it. Just think of all you have accomplished so far.

[busymom]

Hi Ava! I wanted to add my prayers and <HUGS> with everyone else's.

Whatever the outcome, we'll be here for you.