Is anyone else just...tired?

[busymom]

Yes, I'm exhausted.  I thought it had to do with another move, and all of the prep work (I made all of the arrangements, contacted the moving company, did a lot of the early packing, etc.).  I hadn't slept well in our previous neighborhood, as we lived a bit too close to the fire department, and dealt with several neighbors who liked to play their car stereos so loudly that the house would shake when they drove by, usually after midnight.  But, I've been back here for awhile now, and while there's still plenty to do, I'm still tired.  There is still a lot to schedule that I just plain can't, due to delays or just plain closings caused by COVID-19.  As others have mentioned, I'm tired of mean-spirited posts on Facebook.  There are a lot more bullies in the world than I knew, that seem to have come out of hiding, no thanks to the current administration.  I'm tired of news stories of the new lows our administration has achieved, depriving "certain" Americans of their rights, even legalizing shooting hibernating animals in their dens.  The cruelty of the world right now seems to have no limits.  I'm tired of more bad news, day after day after day after day.  More friends and people I know casually who have lost jobs, and don't know how they'll feed their families.  I'm tired of a government that doesn't care how many of us die from COVID, because in their eyes the overall economy is more important than human life. The lack of leadership in figuring out how to really help people, not just businesses, recover. 

I see myself as a fighter.  I always have been.  But right now, I'm just plain tired.  

[swamp]

Yes, yes, yes. 

[countrygirl2]

I solved some of my stress, on FB felt bad about cutting off people I didn't want to hear. They are definitely bigots as I have found out the last 3 1/2 years and had other issues, I unfollowed them, sure made life easier and they don't even know it. I finally did the same on other boards, had asked folks to stop certain things and they would not so I fixed that too, thankfully was just a very few. Made everything much more pleasant.

I just wish the news would have real news instead of getting on one topic and then just beat it to death day after day. That is not news, that is brainwashing.  We quit listening to a certain individuals addresses and that reduced anxiety even more. And we listen to less "news".

It has not solved everything, but has made it better.

[NastyWoman]

I'm just plain weary. I was doing ok-ish with the working from home thing. Idon't need a whole lot of dealing with people face to face, but I do require some - not happening when you live on your own. I had established a reasonsble routine workwise that kept me busy enough. But that was three months ago and there is at least another three weeks of this ahead of me.

And then came the "my rights are being taken away" crowd, protesting with riffles to show how tough they are. Memorial day, George Floyd, Juneteenth RNC meeting (yes I do know they moved that by one day) and now I am starting to think that there is a large portion of society that is just not worth it, so what is the use? Oh well, it has to get better going forward right?...

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Yes I am done, I am so done with the world right now.   I am tired of the tribalism that turns everything into an issue including masks. I am tired of not being allowed to have a nuanced opinion on a subject.   I am tired of misinformation, distrust and a media that feeds on it.

I am sick of my job making it clear we're a worthy sacrifice in the name of money but the office people are not.   No mask policy at all for the last three months not until they came back.  There are 20 of them, the other 100 of us have been working all this time spreading our germs thru the building.   Yes it is the butt of sarcastic jokes between us.

It's also slowing to a crawl because I am in livestock health care.  Only so much filing you can do before you blow your brains out.   So I don't have that to distract me right now.

Sick of work/home, work/home with a panic filled trip to the grocery store in between.   I almost cried when I went to get a hair cut because it was something different.   I am fairly introverted but this has started to become a form of psychological torture for me.  If you've ever had to read The Yellow Wallpaper that's about where I am at.

The kids have regressed.  Abby was doing so well till this happened.   Gwen barely moves from the bed to the couch all day.   There isn't anything for them to do it is either closed or requires so many steps and reservations that it isn't worth it to even try.   We have been trying to come up with things since March and we're running out.   Kids & Co opened and I signed them back up but then I wrestle with the fact we need daycare because eventually DH will need to go back to work and feeling like a horrible mother for daring to send them to daycare at this time.

I have panic attacks about school.  We have heard NOTHING and it's freaking June.   Homeschooling did not work at all.  I had a lot of fights with the teachers about the fact that I had to actually go in to work.   DH's HR department has declared COVID "over" and will not make any exceptions from here on out in regards to it.   So that leaves my mom if school doesn't open and that's not fair.

DH's company is doing more lay offs so we have that to stress about.  Supposedly he is safe but we don't know that for sure.   That's all we need right after he was unemployed in December.

Then to top it off my "win" was going to be Estes Park.  I would follow every rule I had to in order to not be HERE for a fucking week.  Now we cannot go because DH's company does not allow you to go into the negative.  He won't have a full week till freaking December.

Thought about going on my own but since they dangled layoffs in front of us I decided it's better to hoard all our pennies just in case.

Sick of living in a country where I am a second class citizen as a woman.  Tired of living in a country where people I care about are second class citizens.   Tired of living in a country that made it 100% crystal clear the only ones who matter are rich white men.   I am tired of my vote not counting.  I do not condone violence but I get it.  I totally get it.

Tired of it all and tired of following all the rules when no one else in this city seems to.  2020 can go burn in hell.

[Tennesseer]

Jun 14, 2020 10:40:26 GMT -5 @shastasnewlife said:

Jun 14, 2020 9:43:33 GMT -5 Tennesseer said:

Yes. I am tired.

The womens' answers - 500 words. The man's answer - 4.    lol 

I'm tired of division and the attempted politicization and denial of basic science.

This isn't a "second wave" because we haven't even exited the first. To exit the first requires testing and contact tracing. Things we refuse to do as a society, so we may never actually exit this wave. Especially, since it's still growing despite people seeming to ignore that fact and pretending like it's magically disappeared.

I think history will look back on this time and people will shake their heads at the stupidity of people's actions and how many unnecessary deaths it caused.

I'm tired of being home and tired of my body hurting. So, tomorrow I am taking my dog camping in the mountains where I can collect some amazing green petrified wood or or sit in a chair and read a book if that's all my body decides I can do.

It's supposed to rain and be cold. I don't care. I'm getting out into the world. That's why I moved here and more lock down attempts are in the future, so I might as well go now while it's easier to travel.  

I've started spending less time on social media. It's toxic by design. 

  I think I have written more than enough on these boards as to what is wrong with our country.   Most posters know my positions and can figure out why I'm tired.  

[toomuchreality]

No more drama

"So that leaves my mom if school doesn't open and that's not fair."

I admit, home schooling is a whole different thing. And I don't know anything about your mom. But I have been babysitting my granddaughter for the last year, while her mom works from home. And I love doing it! In March, when I had to stop, to quarantine, I was devastated. It gives me a sense of purpose and value. Plus I have a great relationship with my granddaughter, because of it.
Is it possible your mom would feel similar?

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Jun 14, 2020 16:58:01 GMT -5 toomuchreality said:

No more drama

"So that leaves my mom if school doesn't open and that's not fair."

I admit, home schooling is a whole different thing. And I don't know anything about your mom. But I have been babysitting my granddaughter for the last year, while her mom works from home. And I love doing it! In March, when I had to stop, to quarantine, I was devastated. It gives me a sense of purpose and value. Plus I have a great relationship with my granddaughter, because of it.
Is it possible your mom would feel similar?

Maybe.  We've talked about it and my mom is preparing herself for the possibility.  It's just a lot to ask for her to try to home school my nine year old and my five year old for however long this takes with no break because we don't have any flexibility.

I am hoping that Kids & CO since it is now open and accepting all kids that if it does come down that they will home school that Kids & CO will continue to operate during school hours so those of us who are expected to work have options.  Maybe being with kids their own age would motivate them more.

IF it comes to it I am considering asking if I can have my schedule moved to Tuesday through Saturday at least for the school year. Then my mom can at least have Mondays off.  Not sure if they would allow me to flip back and forth but it would not hurt to ask.

DH's company has declared COVID "over".   Bet I know what is going to be the next hot spot in Omaha.

[Deleted]

Jun 14, 2020 15:59:08 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Yes I am done, I am so done with the world right now.   I am tired of the tribalism that turns everything into an issue including masks. I am tired of not being allowed to have a nuanced opinion on a subject.   I am tired of misinformation, distrust and a media that feeds on it. 

Sick of living in a country where I am a second class citizen as a woman.  Tired of living in a country where people I care about are second class citizens.   Tired of living in a country that made it 100% crystal clear the only ones who matter are rich white men.   I am tired of my vote not counting.  I do not condone violence but I get it.  I totally get it.

Tired of it all and tired of following all the rules when no one else in this city seems to.  2020 can go burn in hell.

I hear you. I'm tired of the tribalism, too. I'm tired of having been moved up the citizen ladder to almost first class back in the 70s, the shoved back down. I'm tired of rich white men. I'm tired of knowing damn well that my vote absolutely doesn't count.

I get the violence, too. There are times when I want to run into the street and scream and rant and rave for all the good it would do. It would get me admitted to the psych ward and medicated into a catatonic state.

I seem to have lost interest in just about everything and only keep working in the garden because I'm the one who sits out back and sees it.

I don't even like to cook anymore and groan inwardly when DD asks me to. 

I'm also tired of not daring to speak my mind around DSIL because he's a trumpeter. Why? Because "we've always done it this way." No other reason, just that his family has been rethuglican since time began. Good lord! the other night DD glanced over at him to say something and what was he doing? Checking out her page on FB to see if she'd posted anything contrary to his politics. WTH? If she dares to, he gets all bent and won't speak to her because people in his family see it, and that just won't do. They are uber-conservative and uber-Christian, although AFAIK, none of them go to church.

Deliver me.

[finnime]

Tired. Yes, I'm tired.

Of worrying about DS26, who lives in Manhattan, and DH, who is very high risk, and DD34 who now needs to find an apartment post-divorce.

Of the brutality and stupidity rampant in the country.

Of myself, for no good reason unable to or just not doing the things I feel I ought.

Of having trips to see family in Massachusetts, or spend a week or two in Maine, disappear. They were restorative in a deep and important way for me.

Of a deep worry that we will not in my lifetime be able to undo the damage wrought in the U.S. in the past 3.5 years.

[Deleted]

Again, yes, to all of the above.  All my life I always had hope for the future, at least the national future, if not my personal future.  Now, I am not so sure.  Even at those horrific times in the past when I watched images of death and destruction from the My Lai massacre in Vietnam to Kent State to 9-11, Afghanistan, untold school shootings, and so much more, I always thought that my beloved nation would find a way, be a beacon.  Now, I don't think so. 

I don't know that there is a way forward from the damages, division and hatred of these last 3.5 years.  I can only look to the faces in the protests across our nation, regardless of their color, and hope they find a way my generation didn't.  

[Artemis Windsong]

My best diversion has been Calvin and Hobbes Rides Again on FB. I have spent a lot of time laughing at that and Ridiculousness.

We started geocaching.

I can entertain myself. I like to read. There are archeology and adventure shows I like. Here at home I have a play ground in the basement to practice skills like putting. It doesn't take long.

We do play tennis 3 times a week since it opened.

What is wrong. I spend way too much time on the computer for being retired. A lot of concern for family members. Most are still working.

I am tired.

[Tired Tess]

Yea, I'm tired. I'm angry, I'm disappointed, I'm sad, and I'm afraid for my generation and that of my children. Work sucks. No social life to speak of. No respectable news outlet to keep me apprised of what's going on. Now, more than ever we need strong, supportive leadership. There is none.

[NastyWoman]

Unless something changes for the better, and fast, we may well be at the beginning of the next Dark Ages.

[movingforward]

Jun 14, 2020 19:09:06 GMT -5 @donethat said:

Again, yes, to all of the above.  All my life I always had hope for the future, at least the national future, if not my personal future.  Now, I am not so sure.  Even at those horrific times in the past when I watched images of death and destruction from the My Lai massacre in Vietnam to Kent State to 9-11, Afghanistan, untold school shootings, and so much more, I always thought that my beloved nation would find a way, be a beacon.  Now, I don't think so. 

I don't know that there is a way forward from the damages, division and hatred of these last 3.5 years.  I can only look to the faces in the protests across our nation, regardless of their color, and hope they find a way my generation didn't.  

I do have hope for the future. The younger generations are fighting for change and I believe it will come. Things are already happening...we will be just fine as long as we can get the narcissistic asshat out of office. He brings out the absolute worst in people. Even his own party is starting to abandon him. I refuse to believe it is hopeless.

[The Walk of the Penguin Mich]

This time reminds me of the 6+ months of my life after my hips were removed.  I had to find tools to get through that, where I physically couldn’t leave the house.  My weekly grocery runs are comparable to my weekly doctor’s visits.  

What this time HAS shown us as to what retirement will be like (with a bit more socializing, I hope), which is good since TD has been here 24/7 with me.  I think the animals are sick of us being around so much!

[jelloshots4all]

Agree with all of the above!  Even though I have probably slept more in the last 3 months than the last 30 years, I'm exhausted all the time.  

[countrygirl2]

Well, I'm tired of retirement and not being able to change anything. Yes, I read, and have work to do, but just mundane over and over. Nothing new and different. Even TV is getting old, sigh.

Ok starting a new book, likely the movie, The Walking Dead Rise of the Governor. Just ordered another set of books in another series.

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Jun 14, 2020 20:33:05 GMT -5 The Walk of the Penguin Mich said:

This time reminds me of the 6+ months of my life after my hips were removed.  I had to find tools to get through that, where I physically couldn’t leave the house.  My weekly grocery runs are comparable to my weekly doctor’s visits.  

What this time HAS shown us as to what retirement will be like (with a bit more socializing, I hope), which is good since TD has been here 24/7 with me.  I think the animals are sick of us being around so much!

I swear I've caught Charlotte rolling her eyes. While she enjoys the walks I've noticed she prefers to be outside or in the bedroom more often. I told DH she is likely going to be thrilled to have her space back when he returns to work.

[movingforward]

My cat has been stuck to me like glue for the last 3 months. I'm guessing it is due to his illness. Even though I am sick of being at home I'm kind of glad I have been here for him. If I were on my regular travel schedule with work I would probably be constantly worried.

[Deleted]

I am bored but not tired.  Today is the same as yesterday and will be the same tomorrow.  That is so boring!  Or tiresome.  But again, I am not physically tired.

Some of that is that I was so physically exhausted after caring for DH that I know what true exhaustion is.  Some of that is I only have me, myself, and I to take care of.  I am even retired.  I try to be somewhat active most days.  I have certain chores that I must do.  And I do have to take care of the house.  It isn't really enough to keep me busy, but I don't actually want to be overwhelmed by busyness.  I am ok with doing a few things every day.

I miss people, though.  I am something of an introvert, but I loved working with students.  Similarly, I loved the interaction of retail when I did that as a second job years ago.  I was ok when Abby was here with me.  She was a witty conversationalist even if I, um, put words in her mouth.  I am not so much lonely as so alone.  THAT bothers me although music helps a whole lot.  I sit on the deck with a couple of beers and my Amazon Tap.  It is what I live for.  I actually watch the clock for "Happy Hour," but not for the alcohol.  It is the music.  It is what I lived for when I was caring for DH as well.  I do sometimes still randomly play music in the house, but outside on the deck is sort of escapism.

I realized today that one problem with the covid virus is that no one I know knows anyone who has had it.  The preacher said that today, praising God for sparing us.  One former colleague's mother died in a nursing home, but that is it.   So no wonder everyone is ready to open up even though there were another 1000 cases yesterday.  These are "other" people, you know?

[nidena]

Jun 14, 2020 21:29:55 GMT -5 @bamafan1954 said:

I realized today that one problem with the covid virus is that no one I know knows anyone who has had it.  The preacher said that today, praising God for sparing us.  One former colleague's mother died in a nursing home, but that is it.   So no wonder everyone is ready to open up even though there were another 1000 cases yesterday.  These are "other" people, you know?

I don't know anyone directly but a coworkers brother had it as did direct friends of a friend but, yeah, nobody that I actually *know* has had it.

[jerseygirl]

Jun 14, 2020 20:12:32 GMT -5 Tired Tess said:

Yea, I'm tired. I'm angry, I'm disappointed, I'm sad, and I'm afraid for my generation and that of my children. Work sucks. No social life to speak of. No respectable news outlet to keep me apprised of what's going on. Now, more than ever we need strong, supportive leadership. There is none.

Try looking at Reuter’s.com seems much more factual, world news and not with crazy Kardashian’s etc

[toomuchreality]

The phrase "sick and tired, of being sick and tired", comes to mind.

[Gardening Grandma]

Yes, I’m tired too. And, thank you for starting this thread.
Like Athena, I’m retired and financially OK.
Like oped, I’m an introvert so I’m not chaffing to be out and about.

But, at the age of 75, I cannot contract this virus. 10 years ago, I got very sick from a garden variety Chinese virus. It was the sickest I’ve ever been. I had a rattle in my chest that lasted for months.  And that was a garden variety virus.

I belong to a FB group that is sewing face masks for my community.  It gives me a feeling of purpose and giving back.
Gardening helps too.
And in a few days we are going camping with friends.
The simple things help.

I believe that in order to survive this, I will have to accept that my life has to change for at least another year. 

But, yes, I’m tired. And I miss my family.

[azucena]

Jun 14, 2020 15:59:08 GMT -5 NomoreDramaQ1015 said:

Yes I am done, I am so done with the world right now.   I am tired of the tribalism that turns everything into an issue including masks. I am tired of not being allowed to have a nuanced opinion on a subject.   I am tired of misinformation, distrust and a media that feeds on it.        

Drama captured my feelings better than I could.  Tribalism is a good word to capture it.

I'm also tired of ignorance.

[wvugurl26]

I am definitely tired of all of this. I'm so very tired of the ugliness around it. We've been so successful in preventing NYC from happening everywhere that people don't believe it's very real and very dangerous. And I'm tired of trying to defend that.

It is mentally exhausting. I'm over the reopening talk.

[stillmovingforward]

I'm tired. I'm tired of people not realizing how damaging this all is, how people are dying at high rates, that there are no jobs I am qualified for and that extra $600 saving my bacon right now is disappearing next month with nothing to take it's place, racism is still rampant, white people don't get it. Hell, I didn't get it as much until I adopted DS2 and DD2! I'm tired of the fighting and 'we have ours, to hell with the rest of you' attitude. I'm just...…….tired.
 
I'm very introverted so staying home has been easy. But I miss the stimulation of problem solving from my job. I think I've solved all the long standing issues that I can around my house, cars, RV, etc. I'm out of brain teasers (and I hate puzzles for the sake of doing puzzles). I have a lot of physical jobs to do around my place, I just need some mental stimulation. 

[NomoreDramaQ1015]

Jun 14, 2020 21:36:09 GMT -5 nidena said:

Jun 14, 2020 21:29:55 GMT -5 @bamafan1954 said:

I realized today that one problem with the covid virus is that no one I know knows anyone who has had it.  The preacher said that today, praising God for sparing us.  One former colleague's mother died in a nursing home, but that is it.   So no wonder everyone is ready to open up even though there were another 1000 cases yesterday.  These are "other" people, you know?

I don't know anyone directly but a coworkers brother had it as did direct friends of a friend but, yeah, nobody that I actually *know* has had it.

Same.  My mom's cousin's wife's brother had it and died which was unfortunate.   That is as close to my circle that it has come that I am aware of.   I understand the science perfectly well and I know that if I am stupid I could take someone down with me but I am getting fatigued too.

I am starting to have a panic attack any time I need to put my mask on.   I can't do the three layer one work provided it's too much I feel like I am being suffocated especially in this heat.  I went back to my other cloth mask instead.

I am not going to go without it when needed but it makes me even more tired because now I am having a divided response to the mask.  I want to start moving on but I don't want to wear the stupid mask.    I get it.  I disagree with it but I get it if people are feeling the same way I do about the thing.

[stillmovingforward]

I hate seatbelts. But they are necessary to save lives in case of an accident. I'm more likely to get COVID-19 then get into an auto accident. I wear my mask for the same reason. A necessary evil. I really really want people to wear masks because I liked to go out and it's your mask that saves me. I am very high risk so I really appreciate others wearing masks so I don't get this. I have: high blood pressure, cancer, and lupus. If I get COVID-19, it will most likely kill me. And you'd never know it to see me. I'm fit, I hike, I don't smoke at all (never have) or drink to excess. *sigh* I get it, wearing the mask is rough but its an evil necessity. I really appreciate others wearing masks

My neighbors both had COVID-19. They quarantined early and hard but came through it ok. They said it was the sickest they have ever been though.  They still won't come near me. My DD1 will be living in the garage when she starts rotations due to not wanting to bring it into me. She's seen a lot of deaths and illnesses from this.